Happy Halloween you all !!
Just a little something about my grandmother.
I guess the last time i mentioned about her was about two weeks ago,
which i ended it with her going through a very major surgery.
*click me*The truth is,
that wasn't the end of all our torment.
After the neurosurgery,
we found out that my grandmother was paralysed on her right side, she lost her vision and speech ability.
This, did put the whole family in a very painful situation.
As the worst did happen, when she eventually fall into coma every now and then.
The neurosurgeon concluded that there might still be fluids retained in the brain
as the cause of all these side effects.
My grandmother was put through the second neurosurgery to remove the fluids.
Her condition did not improve from there,
so she was put through the third neurosurgery.
We faced with many hiccups along the way
like my grandmother being infected by virus while she is in the ICU ward and so on.
We have truly left this 80 year old lady in the hands of God
praying even harder and keeping our faiths strong each time
believing that He would do the best thing for her.
We have accepted the fact that my grandmother's half paralysed now, she has lost her vision and she will not be able to speak again.
However, things really did took a turn last Sunday
and it was almost like a miracle happening for us.
Her left side responded, her vision was back, and she said "Im so hungry".
Im so so happy !!
I truly just want to thank all who have been keeping her in your daily prayers, thank you sooo much.
And i was just wondering....
wouldn't it be great if Im able to have both my grandmothers at my wedding in future ? =]
Tonight, was my fourth time watching A Walk To Remember.
I've read the book once, many years ago
and this motion picture still got me tearing at almost every single scene.
I love the quotes used in the movie.
I love the part where he stood up for her.
I love all the little surprises, making her wishes come true, one by one.
I love seeing just how much she has changed his life.
I love everything about this show, and i mean Everything. Y
Do watch it if you have not, alright ?
" Love is always patient and kind
it is never jealous.
Love is never boastful nor conceited
it is never rude or selfish
it does not take a fence
it is not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins
but delight in truth.
It is always ready to excuse,
to trust, to hope and to endure
whatever comes. "
i need to Play.
Has anyone noticed the moon for the past few nights ?
It just seems extremely round and bright, such beauty.
Anyway, one paper down and another three more to go! =]
When i first found out about
LilyPie's tickers,
most of it were only meant for babies and little ones.
Nonetheless, i still went ahead and made one tiny ticker for myself
and placed it on my
friendster page !!
It has been sitting there for almost more than a year now,
and this day today its written on it that im
18 years, 11 months and 6 days old!
what i loved most about my ticker is that little girl with wings holding a wand. =]And i've just found out today that LilyPie has started making tickers for couples now!
So i made one,
with a little boy and girl holding hands walking in the park...
So i thought that maybe i should make one for my parents too !
i Y it.
I'll be starting my first paper tomorrow morning!
I guess time will just start to fly by very fast starting tomorrow and soon before i know it,
i'll be over and done with my finals! =]
I can't wait, im just so sick and tired of instant noodles already.
Just yesterday, i was having lunch with him
when he suddenly went " my grandma will surely cry if she sees what i've been eating for the past few days...".
After hearing that, i actually offered to cook for him a home-cook meal
but he gave me the please-don't-cook-please look.
I don't think my cooking is THAT bad, right ?
nevermind.
I was just flicking through
Hello! magazine this afternoon
when i saw this and fell in love with it almost immediately....
Picture was taken by Terry Richardson, who is infamous for taking semi-pornographic pictures. I must say, this is one of his best work out of all that i've seen.
I just can't think of the best way to describe this picture. Its just....really nice.
Decided to take some time away from books in the evening,
and just reward myself a little.
And yes, im glad to say that retail theraphy did help me alot
as im feeling motivated all over again now! =]
A pair of couple came over to view the room this afternoon
and it did not take them more than ten minutes before placing down their deposits for the room.
I Y this room so much, but oh well
time to tear down all the notices i've pasted around the campus tomorrow !
Life may seem pretty mundane now,
it really is actually
since my life revolves only around home and the library these days. sigh
But i guess the 3 months of summer break after this hurdle is really something to be looking forward to ! =]
tata !!
Drinking coffee hasn't been of much help for me,
i need something more stimulating effective, something stronger, better.
Any idea ?
Its 4.20 am now by the way.
Good Morning to you
and the weekend is here again, so have a fantabulous Friday everyone!
* wheeeee !!! *
Honestly, I am one person who gets
paranoid over things very easily.
Over things i've seen, i've read, stories shared with me, and basically just everything!
and then i'll turn into a very confused girl.
Of course this
horrible characteristic of mine does eventually affect those who are close to me, somehow.
Like this afternoon, a girl of mine was just sharing her story with me
and i think maybe the whole thing was just far too overwhelming for me,
just too sudden.
It wasn't long till nonsensical thoughts started gushing through my mind,
so i excused myself for a little while.
I made my way back to the study area where he was, and pulled my chair right next to him.
I stared at him and went
" Have you been cheating on me ? " .That instance, he put his pen down and stared at me as thought i was speaking German to him.
And the whole thing went on for another 15 minutes or so till i was finally convinced.
I smiled, was happy and went back to doing my work,
leaving him there in a very confused stage.
I did feel a little guilty later on tho.
I can get really horrible at times,
sigh.
Pyramids of Egypt *giggles*this has just reminded me of a little something....
He
describes calls his poo poo
" little bears " !!!He's really one horrible guy, and yes
i Y the fact that he is one.
Im slowly getting back my momentum, and
its basically books, books and more books all day long ! how fun, right.
Then again, the biggest motivation got to be when summer holidays are here right after finals. *jumps up and down*
Say,
> Friends are planning to spend a week in Bangkok and Pattaya. The last time we checked, the price was still a little too steep so we've decided to wait a little longer hoping it'll drop even further. * fingers crossed*
> I'll be moving to a new place! Which also means lots and lots of packing to go.... the mini fridge, bookshelves, microwave, oven, teevee, an etc. Seriously, i still have no idea how am i supposed to pack all of it into boxes !!
The saddening part is leaving this room cause i actually have full view of playmate's room from here
*click me* . The best part is, i'll be moving even nearer to him now!
*burst out laughing*> Im hoping for a little gathering after finals. A mini Mufy gathering, cause i miss all of them so much!
> He promised to bring me to Pavilion and The Garden after our finals ! =]
> My 19th Birthday exactly two weeks after finals ! * hip hip hooray! *
But of course before all the excitement comes, finals first. sigh
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I just want to Thank You All for all the well wishes and prayers shared with me and my family for my grandma, as it does mean alot to us.
My grandmother is off the critical stage now. Although the fact that she has loss her vision and speech ability due to side effects of the neurosurgery hurts us so much, im just thankful enough that she's still around us this day today.
And as for my "most prized moment" mentioned in the previous post, it'll be something i'll hold on to close to my heart for a very long time. Cause that was the last time she saw me, and i'll hear her laughter again. I thank God for arranging that moment for me.
Life's all good. =]
After all that has happened for the past few days,
im left feeling emotionally, mentally and physically very exhausted.
Received a call from home on Tuesday night,
and i practically rushed to the bus station hoping to catch the last ride back home that night itself.
The whole journey back home was uncomfortable, as i felt pretty uneasy deep inside then.
All that's running inside my mind at that point was,
im rushing home hoping to make it in time to at least, say my last goodbye.
Reached Jb around 2.30am.
Stayed up till 4am in the morning, as my parents tried explaining to the both of us
about my grandma's condition.
We left for Singapore General Hospital (SGH) the very next morning.
It was definitely a very heart wrenching sight when i first stepped into the Intensive Care Unit
and saw her sitting there, with the amount of tubes she was connected to.
The adults kept reminding us, not to tear in front of her.
All the discomforts and pain she was going through then did not even deter her will,
as she was still cracking jokes every now and then, smilling away.
And for that I thank God for answering all of our prayers, for keeping her strong enough.
I guess that everyone just wasn't ready to let her go yet.
The very last resort out was taken, as the very painful decision was finally made.
To take the risk of a 80-year-old lady going through a very painful neurosurgery.
My most prized moment got to be the night before grandma's surgery,
when sis and I stayed inside the ICU ward and accompanied her while she have her dinner.
My heart ached the most at that point
as i helped to button her top for the very first time,
to put a napkin on for her for my very first time,
and wondered what took me such a long time to learn that she loves salted vegetables.
I was extremely dissapointed in myself, and was trying very hard to hold back my tears.
I walked out of the ICU ward that night with so much regrets deep inside,
as the fear of losing her the very next day itself kept haunting me.
All im able to say is,
my grandmother has been truly blessed and God had been there right beside her throughout the whole time.
She escaped death, and God decides to lend her to us a little longer.
Throughout this whole five days,
i was at the point of losing my grandmother.
She went through a major surgery.
And lastly, she suffered a minor stroke.
She's still not off the critical stage yet and still resting in the ICU ward,
but i guess at this point now
all im left with is to leave her in the hands of God to give her enough strength to pull through this recovery period.
As for me,
im really trying to remain focused now.
Finals will be in just a week time.
Somehow, it all just happened in a day
a little too sudden. Very upsetting.
Grandma will be going through an operation tonight itself.
And all that im able to do now,
is to keep saying my prayers for her and hope that she'll be strong
for all of us.
I can imagine how worrying things are back home
and how worried Daddy is feeling inside him now
as i continue praying.
I suddenly realised,
that i have lots of friends who are pursuing architecture around me.
I've decided to categorised those who are taking engineering under architecture too actually.
Since the-future-architects actually designs the interior part of a building, and those-future-engineers designs the exterior part of the building. ( i stand corrected if im wrong )
It is really a nice thing having these friends around, really
just that for a person who totally does not own any sense-of-art in her
is pretty, i don't know, weird.
The future-engineers was once was trying to " illustrate some graphics " for the structure of their building in the computer
and asked me to guess what they have have drawn out there.
And of course the me who thinks that im so smart started pointing away excitedly on the computer screen going
" ooh, this is the bed ! there cupboard ! this is the table and window ! "
and then, I got the weirdest stare ever from them i tell you
cause i've just insulted all their hard work. *embarassed*
There's actually many more incidents.
I was a little full of myself when the-future-architect actually asked for my opinion nights before,
he has to design a dressing room for girls.
Not only im unable to come up with any ideas for him, i think i've just insulted his hard work last night.
He was so nice cause he sent me his completed design last night for me to see,
and so i stared very hard into the picture.
" that's the....door ? "
" no, that's the exterior "
" i see i see... "
" ooohh...its oval shaped right !! "
" emmm, nope. Its part of a circle. The miror is oval, its the tri-fold mirror. "
I terus don't want to continue the conversation after that
cause im just never going to get it right.
But i pity them even more, sorry guys! *giggles*
Having a guy by my side,
who understands mandarin and able to converse at least a few dialects have always been a must for me.
I guess this is because i hope that he is able to cover up my weaknesses for me.
I grew up telling the adults around me that
" I am an English girl ".Since young, English has always been the language used to share my thoughts, emotions, perceptions and sentiments with others. And i never quite see any problem with that.
It was until the age of 9,
when a few little incidents changed my thoughts of the people around me
and it got me feeling pretty self-defensive till this day today.
I used to attend this particular lesson twice a week.
The only problem i faced is that every single one in the class speaks mandarin, all but only me.
That matter of fact was pretty disturbing,
as i became the alien of the class, without any friends throughout the whole year.
I guess things did not have to turn out the way that it did, if only the people weren't so nasty back then.
As
banana as i am, i do understand simple mandarin
from my cousins!
Its just that i wasn't able to converse very fluently or understand and write any chinese characters. Thats all.
But the others in the class saw my weakness as their strength.
At the age of 11,
they are big bullies !They would call me names whenever i walk into the class, thinking that i do not understand.
They called me names behind me, and their endless teasers. All in mandarin.
Fact is that i understand, but i just sat at the corner and kept quiet about the whole thing.
I guess the last straw was when the teacher tried explaining something to me,
when a few of them came right up to us and exclaimed in the nasty
-est way ever
" Don't bother teaching her, not like she will understand. She's stupid. " And they laughed. Witches.
From then on, i've stopped attending the lesson.
Seriously if you were in my shoes, its a pretty traumatic and horror experience.
Thanks to my bunch of friends,
i picked up mandarin during my secondary school years from them.
Altho we may be laughing and rolling on the floor
(most oftenly),but my mandarin improved tremendously since then.
Some must be wondering why on earth would i suddenly bring up such a matter.
Well, i guess this is because i had a pretty similar encounter but-just-not-as bad a few days ago.
After living in KL for the past 1 and a half years, of course i do realise that Cantonese are used more rampantly here compared to english and mandarin. And im still in the process of learning.
I do know a few simple words here and there from playmate,
enough for me to at least understand when i have to pay for my food and what a stranger wants when they come up to me.
I was pretty disturbed by the whole incident that happened a few days back,
maybe it wasn't wholly about it but more of they way it reminded me of the past.
But i guess the consolation part is when he actually stood up for me and confronted the whole incident after hearing about it.
The fact that he actually remembered and felt whatever i was feeling when i once told him about the past.
Thanks. It means alot to me.
=]
A very Good Sunday Morning to all !!
I don't quite know whats with me,
but i've been downloading lots and lots of Boyz II Men songs for the past few days.
Guess their songs are pretty great to listen to while im reading studying.
have a great day ahead. =]
I guess many Malaysians would have received as SMS from all their network provider today
something about
" Satu Negara, Satu Nombor " .
It was since the last incident that happened just a few months ago,
* click me ! *when i really saw the importance of knowing and saving the emergency number.So, do save the number
999 alright for those ignorant people out there, just like me !!
=]Have been lacking of updates lately, i know.Its just that things are pretty hectic now,
with my finals coming up in 3 weeks time and all.
Im still not too sure if its a wrong move moving from science to business,
but so far it has been pretty alright i guess.
Just that if the other students are going to put in 100% of their effort into their books,
a business-noobie like me should really put in 200% of my effort then.
Right ?However....as busy busy as i am
*cough cough*I did manage to take some time off to head to
Topshop this afternoon !
Since they were having 20% off storewide for students,
just have to make sure that i am there and not missing out on any great deals right.
Dinner tonight was awesome.
We had it in
Miss Read, there were eight of us.
Great ambience, plenty of pillows, with another seven
laugh-till-i-can-mati companies, really nice.
Will definitely try to pop by and drop little updates as often as possible,
till then, tata !!
=]
I've been so so caught up with my accounting assignment
and finally, got it all done at 5am on Tuesday morning.
Practically spent the whole Sunday with a bunch of friends
doing the assignment for 9 hours straight, a 45 minutes dinner break, another 6 hours straight till Monday morning.
I pronounced myself brain dead at the end of the day.
This, is seriously the toughest assignment i've done so far in this semester.
And im so happy but exhausted that its finally done !! * three cheers for su-lyn! *
Have to start studying for finals tonight.
