Someone once equate love to a boomerang,
pretty ironic isn't it, like how can love be allied to, a boomerang ?
Then he explained
" Just let it fly. Cause no matter how hard you throw it, if it still comes back to you, then its meant to be yours. "Since then, this aphorism has pretty much helped me through many situations.
You see after so many years, today i finally got to share this with a friend
and it really worked for her, too.
Being in a relationship seriously isn't easy. All the Good times vs the Bad times, get what i mean?
And being with Ben for our second-going-third year now, we have obviously been through quite alot of
challenges together, or if you'd allow me to put it more crudely, shits.
Let's talk about me.
I have to start getting used to the idea of sharing everything in my life with him.
I have to let him know before making any final decisions.
I have to learn to be more patient. I have to learn to compromise. I have to be more understanding. My life isn't all about myself anymore. And so much more.
Thing is, there are many things which i've learnt and done in this relationship which i would have not have been bothered to if it were to be any other Tom, Dick and Harry.
But the guy im talking about here is Ben, and he is the reason why. Because he made me believe that he is worth all the things which i've done, by doing the same for me.
So far, everything has been worth it. And through all that we've been through, those which does not destroy us has made us even stronger.
We took things pretty slowly from the beginning.
It was only after our first year, when we felt that things are secure enough and brought each other back home to be introduced to our parents. Now, he is over my place everyday.
It was only after our second year, when we felt that things between us are even more secure now to be introduced to our extended families. Grandma, uncles, aunties, cousins. Now, they are constantly asking for him.
What will the third year bring for us, i wonder.
And of course most importantly, the whole can-i-trust-you thing.
I will always remember what Ben once said to me,
" I will not ask for you to trust me. But im asking for some of your time, to let me prove everything for you to see ". And true enough he really did. He gave me no reason or even an excuse to doubt him.
We've had far more good times compared to our very occasional bad times.
You see, a part of me has accepted the fact that nothing is certain between us.
There may be a day when he realised that he is able to love another more than me. That maybe a day will come when things just happen. Or maybe everything that seems so important to us now starts to lose its meaning in time to come.
" But i guess you just need to have a certain kind of faith - to actually believe that what you're doing now will bear some fruit in the future. "
I'm finally home after four long months.
And nothing beats home.
Parents revamped the whole place for the 654,321
th time but it feels so so nice and cozy now!
My first evening back home, and the four of us went to have some really sumptuous dinner together
my sister's treat. As part of our Father's Day celebration for daddy. =]
Grandma came over after dinner,
and we had the two boys over (adrian & ben) too. All of us seated in the dining room, having slices of cakes, sharing conversations. And the house was filled with so much laughter and warmth.
The feeling which i've been yearning so much for all these while.
And this morning,
i treated everyone to breakfast, including uncle's family.
You see, there's just so much more on my Want-To-Do-List for this break,
yet it isn't exactly a very long one.
Lunch with the girls in the afternoon, at
Bubba Gump.
Remember the movie Forrest Gump ?
C'mon, im sure you do. With the whole oh-so-infamous line " Run, Forrest Run! "
Its pretty horrible if you don't actually. Cause it'd be as though you don't know the movie Titanic, and that is just so imposibleeeee.
Bubba Gump is basically the restaurant inspired the movie Forrest Gump,
with all their interior decorations related back to the movie.
And of course, with their all-time specialties, shrimps. Beer batter shrimp, Breaded shrimp, Shrimp stuffed with crab, Butter shrimp, Chilled shrimp with cilantro etc.
The day out with the girls turned out to be really nice,
the kind of which i really love. Simple and very laid-back, purely enjoying each other's company.
very heart-warming. =)
In the evening while walking along The Street,
there was this live band performance. Three men and a woman.
And they sang so well, that the three of us sat there for almost an hour listening to them serenading us with oldies and tunes by the Carpenters, Bee Gees, Mariah Carey as well as The Letterman (see, i know them alright!).
Had our dinner over Steven's corner (they serve supa dupa yummylicious cheese naan) later on. Spent hours recalling all the good times, recollecting all the good memories and laughing at how silly we used to be.
Pictures
Weiwen. Wenyi.
me. Wenyi.
Like finally,
the day has come. But the thing is, suddenly it just feels so weird to have freedom.
For more than a month (its moreeee than a month that we're talking about here people, even i'm amazed by myself) i've cooped myself up and turned realllyyy nerdy. Wasn't easy at all.
And now i wake up in the morning and go " Now,what should i play today? "
and this feeling is damn shiok okay. =)
First thing after my last paper was - having lunch with those who have just embraced freedom and set their spirits free, like me.
2nd - spent time with Jean and Mae. The useless two who kept me sane throughout the whole exam period.
I felt so weird and lost and uneasy with the whole suddenly-not-studying-anymore feeling that i spent the rest of the night flipping back on all the notes which i have done for the semester and prepared for my exams. Then i became damn bangga of myself.
And if some of you may be wondering, where on earth is the boyfriend since he has been missing-in-action for quite some time now, i know.
He's still around with me everyday. Just thought i'll leave him out till the finals are over.
Since all he does the whole day is to nag remind me to study hard, harder, even harder, and hardest everyday. Nope, im not complaining alright!
I'm filled with so so much happy bubbles!!
Third paper this morning,
think i saw Dr. Pat catching a glimpse of all of us in the exam hall before he turned his back and left. I'm guessing its for good this time.
He'll be heading back to Aussieland after this semester to be back with his family.
He sent us an email last night, i found it only this afternoon
thanking us for the very enjoyable semester.
Next week would be my last time seeing some faces around too,
since so many would be transfering to other campuses. Clayton, Caufiled, Berwick, Peninsular, South Africa.
But i guess its supposed to be this way? I mean life.
People come and people go. No matter what, tomorrow will still be here, and life would still have to go on. right?
got tagged by Missy Aliya.
Here is the instruction:
- Post your photo wearing red, may it be a red top or bottom, the least would be red accesories if you never wear red. If you can't find one, you still have an option. Either post your significant other's photo or your child photo, if you have one. Of course, they should be wearing red.
- Let us know the reason you were wearing red that particular day. Was it your birthday? Is red your favourite colour or was it the top that you first saw in your closet that day?
- Tag 3 people close to your heart from your blogroll.
Alrighty, here goes!
This is me, in red !
This picture was taken in a farm at Bukit Tinggi. All the rabbits were hopping sooo happily around me and thats when i spotted this fat little brown fella. So i was practically chasing after it till i finally caught it ! Just look at the ears....not mine, the rabbit's !!
And i wore red that day for apparently, no reason. =]
Just recently, Jean and i have come up with this whole little "pot" idea thing.
Basically, we just dump everything and everyone whom we dislike into this hugeee imaginary pot of ours
and it really have helped to keep the both of us sane till this day alright !The both of us would just go ranting on and on about stuffs, and i'd would be her listener, sometimes she would be mine, before finally concluding " Alright, that person really deserves to be thrown into the pot!".
Honestly, im loving the whole "pot" idea thing
cause it makes me feel soooo good everytime we open the imaginary lid, dump whoever we want in it, close the imaginary lid, forget about the whole chapter and life moves on as usual.
The thought of it is just, funny. =]
Loving her pieces.
Stella Im Hultberg. Y
tomorrow is finally
THE day.
My heart has been beating very fast since yesteday (can you hear it?), and im feeling so anxious and excited and confused but still excited and worried and very very nervous!
I've got my essence of chicken ready, placed right in front of my table. Tomorrow morning remember to take!
( lyn's little secret to success : Chicken essence setiap pagi sebelum ujian! since UPSR days y'all, don't play play )I have the tendency to overload myself with stationaries too.
Eraser, two! Pencil, two! Blue pen, three! Black pen, one! Red pen, one! Highlighter, one pink one yellow! Ruler, two! Liquid paper, one!
Cause i am one who gets extremely panicky if something were to go wrong, nothing can go wrong during exam period okay. So be nice to me, im in an extremely vulnerable position now. Poke me once, and i'll burst out crying, yah that serious!
See, even my lappie's mouse who has died on me since last week decided to come back to life again this morning. =)
Tried going to bed early last night.
" Nonono, i must put all my notes aside and practise sleeping early tonight. So that i won't have problem sleeping tomorrow night then Thursday morning i will be supa energetic for my first paper! Yes, thats what im just gonna do."12am. 1am. 2am.
Counted sheeps. Imagined that im Mariah Carey singing on stage. Thinking what im going to do after exams. Talked to my bears. 3am. Still can't sleep.
Sleeping time all screwed up for the past 3 weeks. Great, just great.
Im going to pay someone to punch till i knock out tonight if i still can't sleep.
Seems as though it has been 987,654,321 days since i last went out,
and im in desperate need for fun fun fun!!!
turning so restless. *wheeeeeee*
