Got to noe tis song few years back..Was my fav for two years !! haha...juz felt that this song is reali reali very meaningful..and its lyrics juz very well written.. you guyz should listen to it too.. Westlife-If Your Hearts Not In It... forgot all bout tis song..till i heard it again from jeff's hp last week...nice song~"If Your Heart's Not In It"
I'm missing you
Girl even though you're right here by my side
Cause lately it seems
The distance between us is growing too wide
I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
The last thing that I wanna hear
But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it
You say that you love me
But baby sometimes
You're just saying the words
If you've got somethin' to tell me
Don't keep it inside
Let it be heard
I'm so afraid that you're saying it's over
Girl I'll make it easy for you
But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it
How I wish I could take us back in time
But it's gone too far now we can't rewind (And there's nothing that I can do To stop me losin' you)
I can't make you change your mind (If your heart's not in it)
But if your heart's not in it for real
Please don't try to fake what you don't feel
If love's already gone
It's not fair to lead me on
Cause I would give the whole world for you
Anything you ask of me I'd do
But I won't ask you to stay
I'd rather walk away
If your heart's not in it
heYoo !!! haha..if u ppl realised...i actuali posted sum pics..well,its juz for the fun of it..tinkin that i've not posted pics for quite sum time ledi,so scared later my 'Hello' acc karat...then was lookin thru the pics in my comp..den juz decided to post em !! =P haha...Well..wokie up quite earli todae..was bout 5smth actuali..coz i tot of waking up early to read thru mi undang tingy before the test...well,my prinsip is 'Studying early in the morning,the brain absorbs betta'..mebbe,it works juz for me la..but end up,i shut off the alarm.Then drag awhile..den shut off again..Then finali bout 6.15am liddat woke up !! Saw the clock den was like gAsP !! me tis turtle need long time to get ready wan and the man is comin to pick me in 60mins time !! (1 hour lar..) haha..quickly got ready and blah blah blah...den waited outside ledi. Since tis driver got the habit of horning wan !! and i bue tahan listen to ppl simply horn wan..duno why..mebbe it juz runs in my family lar..its kinda very rude u noe !! hahaha...But guess what..the driver came 30MINS LATE !!! another tingy that i hate the most..werz his sense of responsibility arr.. To let u ppl out der noe..im a very impatient person actuali..not that i mind waiting lar. I wont mind waiting for sumone even if that person is 10hrs late as long as theres a relevant reason..Other than that..lemme wait for 15mins n u'll see the colour from my face changing..Not that im fussy or what la..i juz feel its a sense of punctuality and responsibility that is good and shud be nurtured in every soul out der..Wadeva la.. but i dun mind waiting for my own frenz actuali =P coz dey tak payah explain also i can agak the reason ledi.. But ppl,dun take tings for granted okiez,if u're gona be late..its okie..juz make sure u let yr dear poor fren der waiting know !! hahaha...Kayz..so he finali reached bout 7.45am..So the long long journey all the way to perling..den guess what..here cumz the interesting part.We got down n walk into the office..the first ting the woman ask me..'Your IC plz' and i went 'Huh ?'...after awhle she looked at me and ask ''Werz yr IC?' and i went 'HARH ?' den she looked up n said ''I NEED YOUR IC'' and i was like ''SHIT..'' yooohoo !!! good news...me and dexter boi din bring our IC !! we're taking the undang test and we din bring..how cow brain can we get..So de kind woman got the uncle who fetched us here all the way frm town to fetch us back hme to get our IC and to go bac der again..i give up..im speechless..me and dexter boi stared at each other blink* blink*...So we went back into the car tht u-turn to fetch us again and the driver and his wife was like ''Saya BELUM BREAKFAST PUNYA TAU !!'' n im like wad de...wadeva..nvmz,i tahan..since its MY FAULT...so ? he had to go all the way frm perling..to uda..to take his breakfast wit his wife leavin me n dexter in the car..den back hme..den fecthed a few more humans..den went back der again..n frm der we're sent to another place wit another car pulak..long journey huh..i was like tellin dexter we're out for a joy ride todae.. It was bout 10+am ledi..imagine..we left at 7.45am and its hoursss after that drivin frm one place to another b4 we finali can take our num n wait for our test..sighz~..While waiting...u ppl shud see how nervous itu dexter is..my goD~..duno go toilet how mani timez..farny laa..haha..finali bout 11+am our turn !! both of us went in at the same time..blah blah blah..came out...yaY !! i passed my test !! haha..both of us passed our test lar..dexter also pass !! =P me managed to get 90% while dexter got 94% !!! haha..so happieee...Then we went back hme..Was bout 2smth ledi by the time we managed to go hme...den i went over to kerrys to meet mumsie and june der ! june came back from kl tis weekend !! hahaa..had lunch der..den walked around..very very tiredz ledi..Got back den at nite went out for dinner...Then actuali got plans to go out watch movie tonitez ledi..but everytin so last minute,so end up din make it lor..wasted~! argh..hahaha !Tink me gona retire earli todae...coz kinda very tiredz..den tmr mornin still got class..aikss !!tata ppl............
My dream : Tis shall be my first car after i got my license !! hahaha.. taken in Singapore during the Motorshow..
Are you ppl really very sure..that batman can really fly ? Or did i juz missed out those ropes from the tv screen.. taken in Movie World,Goast Coast,Brisbane. (Nov 2004)
Who saes Buttercup havent got her license ?! look at tis..proof proof !! haha.. taken in Sea World,Gold Coast,Brisbane (nov 2004)
My pride... Convent's Choir..
Todae's good fridae !! so happie good fridae everyone !! =P Well..Convent having off todae..and tomorrow too !! got to noe that many school having lessons tomorrow..dunno why..but dun care la..not me can ledi !! haha...Nothing much todae..Woke up..den drag myself all around the house..Then went out for lunch-y ! After that went over to rohaini for bm tuition..blah blah blah..went over to kerrys after that. Munch a little with dexter boi..sumtin farny happened..but i shall not mention it here,coz my sixth sense tells me that that guy who claims himself to be handsome and cute will kill me if i do..hahaha !! but damn farny la..After that went over to omega for yip's physics class...Juz feel that the class is getting more n more packed !! so fed-up and hotty !! wanna complainnnn...hahaha..Well..tink im goin offline earlier todae..coz tomorrow have to wake up earli earli !! The man gona cum n pick me up at 7.15am tomorrow morning . Haha..yeapz peeps...me gona go for my undang test esok..Pray hard kayz..i dunwan to failll...Failling isnt impossible arr !! haha..kaylar..i betta go n read a lil now..see ya ppl !! tata...
phew~...after a long tiring week..finali the weekend is here !! arghh..n the nice part bout it ? we have extra one dae break..all thanks to Good Friday !! =PThis whole week...been mostly bout taking my exam results..Well,lemme tink wads the best word to describe my results...i tink its..''SUX''..yea,it sux pretty badly..to tink i got all so stressed up bout it and im so idioticly not satisfied wit it at the end of the day..wad de~..im pretty happie bout a few of it lar..but still..arGh,shall not create any excuse behind all tis and work harder for mi nex term !! cannot play play ledi..Yea,sum may have read...an ex-convent jaybee gurl actuali wrote in to the Star newspaper with her very inspiring topic 'Let Us Take Part'. So what is tis all bout lar... Letz juz summarise her story..its more like after 5years of being given UN-dying attention and love and care and lotsa concern from Convent,yea,seems like tis ex-convent gurl left sch feelin pretty not satisfied wit smth. She juz wrote in feelin that there's no one to bring out the best and potential in every student and thus,their talents are often wasted. (OOoo..okay~) Not forgetting that she actually quote that in her own sch,only the best voices can represent the sch in choir,onli the best dancers will perform on stage and onli the most vocal students can join the debate team. Wow,these phrase reali managed to portray the unhappiness she felt in sch all tis while huh..She also quote a saying that actuali holds a very deep meaning in every convent gurl's soul..wic im kinda hurt or unhappy that she could actuali make such a remark about tis particular phrase which i've been damn proud of for tis past 5 years in convent secondary. ''Ask what you can do for the school and not what the school can do for you.'' Her argument towards that phrase was ''How can we contribute to out school if we are constantly prevented from taking part in aanything?'' and how mad was i wen she made the remark ''A beautifully crafted phrase that i guess lack relevance''. I shall not go on further bout what else she wrote inside the paper...Dear XX, i seriously admire you for your brave-ness to actuali cum out wit such a piece or artwork and even having it published in the papers for the entire nation to read.Wow,i would sae. But ugh..im seriously keeping my finger crossed and hoping from the bottom of my heart...that you're not expecting the teachers or anyone in school to lay a red carpet in front of you,waiting for you to bring out the best potential in you that you feel that you have right ? May i juz conclude that Convent may have over thousands of students ? So,tis means the teachers suppose to actuali look into each and every student and therefore nurture and coach and train each and every one of us till we becum sum1 big sumdae,till the dae we're satisfied wit ourselves? Hmm.. Mebbe too often we're so used to tis Asean society,of blaming others wen sumtings go wrong or wen tings dun go our way.. Me,being me..being a convent gurl for the past erm..lemme sae tis is my 11th year in convent ledi..Just dun see the meaning behind yr worthless artwork filled wit emotions. But i muz sae,im rather impressed with your level of English,its reali good..but i doubt,you're gona give Convent the credit for it ? I'm sumone who is always goin hme telling my parents and everyone around me Oh,how proud i am to be a convent gurl blah blah blah (me,being the snobbish me), always mentionin that Convent jaybee is a place and a home..that actuali helped many helpless teenage soul to find their real self. I have seriously learned alot in life and im still learning,all thanks to Convent for giving me all the chance.Do i sae that im given the chance or..i fight for the chance as it did not cum juz rolling down the hill one dae ? After being a volleyball player in sch,it definitely taught me alot bout self-dicipline.What bout my dearest choir ? Choir taught me the most..from how timid, stage-shy,stupid n tinkin dat i could do nth apart from keepin myself in class...I became the Me,the me i am todae. It was tis club who gave me the chance to travel all the way to Pahang, to Kedah, to Mersing, to Pagoh,to have the honour to perform in NewYork hotel,and seriously,many more places that i fail to mention down here. Met many new frens along the way..had many experince that i noe i can neva have elsewhere..memories,being sad or happie one..teaching me the spirit of winning and what team work is reali all about..and most of all..it taught me to be more responsible for myself. No amount of words is enough for me to describe how proud am i. Without Convent, will the Convent choir club even exist,i wonder..Reason im so proud of my school ? Being it sports or studies..Convent showed no sign of failure in both area. We're one of the top wen it cum to studies.We're also one of the top wen it cum to sports. So..wads is it all about 'many students are often deprived of enjoying sports' ? What is it all about 'sincerely hoping that schools would not be institutions that promote low self-esteem' ? Blah to all what you sae..blah to you wen u din realise that what you wrote could bring down the name of the school that kept you sane.. Double blah to you when you feel that the phrase 'Ask what you can do for the school and not what the school can do for you' is juz a beautifully crafted phrase which lack relevance...after being proven that it brought so much glamour and success to the school ?? Blah to you after feeling that only our academic results matter as proof that we are capable of achieving success and delivering results and only a string of As measures your worth. Did you even realise how damn proud all of us were..no..how proud the entire school was about the 2004's SPM results ? including you ? YEa,listen..we're proud of you and yr SPm result !! and instead of feelin good bout it yourself..you're feelin so low that you nearly brought the entire sch down with you ? Mebbe tings will be betta if you would juz write in to the newspaper and kept your name XX instead of writtin yr real name and the name of my beloved school ?! you could have juz generalised your piece of art going out to everyone and every teacher should take notice of it..Not publishing the name of the school that tried so hard to keep you sane for 5 years~!! Great,so now...many ppl read your unhappiness...you feel better now ? you feel justice have been done for you now ? i wonder...
20th March, SundayLazy to wake up tis morning...But had to lar..got chem class tis morning...wadeva la..Drag myself to class...But paid 100% attention to him todae la..altho kept lookin at my watch..haha..After class daddie n mumsie put me hme and they went out... So came online n chat a lil wit meihui..In juz minutes she walked over to my place...Catch up a lil..tok tok tok..Till she had to go n pick her lil sis up from omega..So i juz followed along la..Walked back to her place to get her car and went n fetch her sis back.. Din realise omega actuali will jam until so teruK wan !! no wonder daddie neva wan to fetch me straight frm omega's door step..haha.. After that then meihui drop me home..daddie n mumsie not hme yet...Blah blah blah..den actuali wanted to go over to jilly's place later..but dunola..see how tings go first..i wanna attack the hamster !! hahaa..Kan believe it,one week break juz finish like tis..I enjoyed myself alot tis one week break la..thanks to daddie n mumsie for givin me the freedom to enjoy tis hols..altho i noe..always set yr priorities right !! haha..Wont abuse the freedom given to me..But of coz it isnt right to go out so often liddat wen sch starts laa !! see,im such a gud gurl =P hahaha..
17th March , ThursdayHad mr.lim tuition todae..The class was damn packed with 92 students !! it was 92 i tink..wenjie counted it..aint sure.. How to fit so many laa ?! So the clerk had to get those students commin fro replacement class out n ask us the original student to find place first..but me n dexter boi no place to sittt...So conclusion : had to change class...Realli felt damn uncomfortable den..it was so damn packed..so hot..aRGHHH...and mr.lim had not enuf paper for me n dexter boi !! waste my time onli...18th March, FridayHad rohaini and mr.yip todae..everytin was on like normal lar..nth much atcuali..haha..19th March, SaturdayDunno to go cs to watch the hip-hop dancing competition todae anot..haha..So went for addmath class...Puan Chua was so nice to actuali give our class extra an hour lesson todae so we could catch up =P After the class then went over to kerrys wit frenz..after awhile me went over to cs to meet up wit juivy der..by that time,the competition was almost finish ledi..sighz..haha..Walked around and sat around..till it was like nearly 7pm ledi...Then daddie n mumsie came n pick me up..We headed to The Dining Room for the first time..ermz..nice ambience..nice food..not bad larH i wud sae..haha..u shud try it sumdae ya !!
yeah,if sum realise..i deleted sum tingy tht i've posted.. =P told meihui,i'll delete it once im betta..juz wanna an outlet for me to vent wadeva i feel like crappin inside me~.. =Plemme continue from wer i stop la..16th March,WednesdayTodae is reali crazy lor..Last nite bout 1+am i was in my room doin sum stuff..wen i sudenli received a msg. Read it n it was like ''can u cum online now?' i was like..of coz a bad feelin la..so i replied 'is it sumtin urgent''? den the reply was ''yes,sumtin urgent.come online now''. Of coz ani normal human would feel a lil panicky ritez..so quickly came bac online and the first ting dat came ''sulyn,wanna go singapore tmr?'' i was like...boMb~..haha..so blah blah blah..juivy was in singapore ledi..ching wanted to go..so im havin a tough time deciding..shud i or shud i not..and its like so last minute..I reali kan decide dat nite,so decided to leave it to mummie n daddie to decide for me.They're asleep by then ledi..so juz pasted a note on their door tellin dem i wanna go singapore,shud i anot..Next mornin mummie knock on my door..opened and she was like..go lar..i was like whuaa..steady seh mummie ! haha..so told ching going..then tsing yiu also goin.. blah blah blah..11pm meet them in cs to go over singapore..Three of us crossed over to singapore..not forgettin dat i was stucked inside the damn tingy arGhhh..haha..then we reached kranji mrt station n met up wit tiuby der..Our first destination : Orchard..hahaha..everytime go singapore sureli go der wan..sIghz~..Went der n de noisiest tsing u said he was hungry..so blah finali decided on a place to settle dwn..Dey can reali eat lor..wanna proof ? right after that they headed to moss burger and ate a burger eaCh !! right after that thai restaurant..i was like..'whoaa'..gimme a burger n im nt sure if i can even finish it(i dun eat burget aniwayz..) After that..walked around orchard..and gez wat..bought ice-cream..den after that ? went into heeren and i belanja makan churos..siao ritez these ppl ?!! haha..after that ching wanted to ice skate sooo much..but i din reali feel like it la..then tsing u was like sin lim sin lim..n tiuby was like sentosa sentosa..haha..see,everyone wans diff ting..Conclusion : without gettin prepared or anitin..we headed for Sentosa !! hahaha..crazee ritez..it was like so awkward ! 4 aliens clag juz in shirts and jeans wit tht kind of weather wen everyone around us wit juz swimmin trunks n bikini..haha..nvmz,we walked around sentosa..den was dying for air-con..so end up..went into Underwater World !! =P haha..childish ritez..but nvmz..had fun inside der tho..lookin at those cute tiny winny jellyfish and our so-called 'alumminium fish' haha..gave it a new name..Saw big BIG AND I MEAN REAL HUGE fishes swimmin all around us..wow~..was pretty captivated tho~..We even went two rounds lar..haha..ching n tiuby tried takin pictures wit their cam fon..Failed attempt laa..conclusion : nex time get a betta camera fon..haha..why am i tokin so much wen i dun even own a cam fon ?! nvmz..After that ? we took a very long walk along the beach..walk walk walk..luffin at ppl..bad ritez..nvmz..haha !! After tht very tiredz ledi..saw a good place to juz rest n sit..sat there wen sudenli spot a woman wit a bicycle..Tiuby went forward n asked her wer did she rent it..And so,four of us headed der..And each rented a bicycle. Here cums the interesting part la..I dunno who was the smart-ass dat spotted the ''CYCLE TRACK'' signboard while cycling and der we are..stuck inside the cycle track..Im still complainin till todae..WHY DO THEY CALL IT A CYCLE TRACK WEN U CANT EVEN CYCLE ?!! u're like suppose to push yr bicycle up most of the time coz its full of slopesss !! arghhhHH..i tink die inside also nobodi noes..and the worst ting,yesterdae we juz went n watch the 'feng shui'..along the cycle track..lotsa abandon houses..gOsH~..quickly,juz wanna get out frm dat eeriee place !! haha..FINALLY...we found our way out..Could see,everyone was almost dead ledi..After tht headed to de delifrance nearby for a drink..And o man~...de entire time i was craving for ikan bakar inside me..i dunno why !! haha..Had a drink der n we juz sat there n restt~...air-con,relaxing..felt so good den..haha !!After tht,we decided to head back jaybee ledi lar...was bout 6++ close to 7+pm ledi..By the time we get out frm sentosa..was bout 7++pm close to 8+pm ledi..haha..blah blah blah..Finally reached jaybee bout 9+pm ledi..Stood der wit ching n tsing u waitin for daddie n mumsie to fetch me hme..hme sweet hme~...aiH..after sending ching bac was bout 10pm+ ledi..i was dead beat..deAd~..hahahaall those cycling up the slope reali hurt my leg alot tho..i tink my old injury is back ledi..it hurts damn alot since dat dae..Remembered how i fell during cheering time last year that got torn ligamens..OUcH !! me myself also geli ar,to tink bout it..haha.. halfway cycling i could reali feel the pain juz tht tahan..tahan..went hme onli..goSh,felt like chopping off my leg der n den !! hahaha..sighz...newayz,i realli did enjoy the singapore trip todae very very much tho !! haha.. =P
yoz ppl~....
haha..lemme see..din update for quite sum time ledi..shall i start with my mondae ?
14th March , Monday..
Woke up real earli todae..considerin dat its hols lar..but not forgettin to thank my 'alarm clock' for waking me up tis morning at 6.30am..haha..u noe who u are~.. Then faster got ready..blah blah blah..7.30am ledi !! faster go outside n wear my shoe..juz rite the car arrived ! By that time vonz and rach ledi inside the car...Then headed for perling after that..After going through alot of fillin in form stuff and blah blah blah..it was bout 9am ledi wen the four of us were sittin inside a class. Yea,im listenin my Undang todae..hehe !! So i sat beside peiman in class..Felt as if the whole class are all weird-lookin ah bengs who tot they look so cool holding a cigratte wearing the sissy shirt and pants~..arGh..had a good time luffin at them tho~ Our teacher was great !!! kept us alive the entire 5hours !! serious..he got us luffin n luffin n luffin..was havin lotsa fun den~...Was bout 4.30pm when the whole kursus tingy finali ended..After that they sent me home..So many of us squeeze inside the damn van !! im gona be very ganas bout tis...This damn idiotic van is so small..But fitted 18 ADULTS !! lemme emphasis..18 ADULTS inside it..and oh..u noe wads the best part ? NO AIR-CON !!! ermz..wad bout the windows ? lemme see..the windows..CANT OPEN !! felt like dying juz der n den that moment..arGh~ finali glad im SAFE AND SOUND back home bout 7pm ledi..imagine,1hr++ in that condition..its a wonder im still here blogging eh..
Learnt sumtin bout myself today..after 17years..now onli noe..sumtin that was quite a shock to me,my friends,my parents and especially my sis who called back all the way from aust expressing her shock and concern bout tis matter. I dun wan the whole entire earth to noe bout tis..so..im not gona tok anitin bout it. Juz wanna thank peiman alot for helping me out todae durin the ''sumtin''. And tiuby was like afraid i'll suffer from depression bout tis..NaH~..notin's gona get me down ya..no worries.. actuali,i find it kind of amusin !! =P
15th March , Tuesday
Was bout 7++am... then heard sum farny noise then woke me up from lala land..reached for the hp and saw the msg..Tiuby ajak out for movies !! arGh..din even bother askin dadsie n mumsie i agree !! heyz..was waitin to catch a movie tis hols lor..alot of new shows !! Then bout 12pm went for physics tuition..After tuition bout 2pm den went over to cs to meet us wit tiuby..by that time ching,tsing u,ban lee and satisha was ledi der...Went and watch Feng Shui !! wen tiuby told me i was like 'harh..that..isnt it a horror movie ??!' then she was like ..''yes arr ??!!'' den im like tellin myself..o shit'...sighz..Kayz,ppl..if u're the sort of person who watches horror movies and will get easily irritated wen the person beside u cover herself with a jacket the entire movie..den neva ask me kay..haha..wait,let me emphasis again..i onli mean HORROR movie..bring me to a comedy and see how i luff till malukan u in the cinema lar..haha..its a wonder tho~..im reali scared but no matter wad i still always join my frens watching horror shows..mebbe..i luv covering my eyes with my jacket ? dunola..Overall,if u minus the horror part..and u minus the stoopid-part bout the billy and his bike and how all the 'ghost' appear all around the hse..i would sae tis show is ''B-O-R-I-N-G'' lar..haha..still kan believe how the guy sittin at the back screamed..haha !! damn farny seh..hahaha !! after the show then met daddie n mumsie dwnstairs...they had a veryyy 'fruitful' shoppin dae todae laRh !! rather tiredz la..coz slept quite late last nite..trying to finish the 500 undang ques to coz i dunwan to fail my undang test !! haha..then woke up so earli todae..went for tuition den went to cs and paid rm10 to frighten myself for 2hours..sighz~ haha..
Been trying to find a blogskin for quite sum time ledi..mebbe coz im very fussy or letz juz sae..i can't bear to part with this blogskin ? nothing seems nice to me except for tis blogskin of mine..haha..and i still find tis irritating song of mine the best-EST !!..haha !!
9th March - Thursdayactuali suppose to finish and end our first test of the year todae with our chem n est paper..But last minute in the morning teacher announced that the test will continue only tomorrow becoz todae the ex Form-5's taking their Spm results !! haha..todae is finali 'ThE DaY' !! No teachers around the whole school at all the entire day..Went down to the hall where the ex form5s' collected their results...could feel the cold-ness in the hall lor..duno why,but i was also very nervous~ haha !! First senior whom i spot : Mei Hui ! haha..damn proud of tis gurl..did fantastic-ally VerY Well ! then one by one all the seniors came by..was hugging each and everyone of dem feelin damn happy for them !! =P its like..every single one of them did very very well !! envy seh~ haha..aiyah..juz reali very proud of all of them lar...did Convent proud !! =P but tis also means..adding more burden to us,the present form5 to upkeep or do betta than their record lar..haha..it was reali nice to see al of them again lar~..seeing how much some of them have changed~...all the head in the hall arr..multi-colour aR~..haha..After that went to library to read a lil chemistry for tmr's test wic was suppose to be todae..After not long..finali its time to go back~!! Went over to kerrys and had lunch wit dexter boi in stonegrill (AgAiN~) haha..but its nice la..after that we walk walk walk around..for the first time,we can take our own sweet time coz not rushing for ani tuition..After that then was bout 4.30pm..aiai,meihui n kekyee crossed over to omega with me n dexter...Coz they wanna go 'visit' mr lim..their ex-chemistry teacher..so blah blah blah..went home..tot that todae can finali merdeKa~..but end up still have to study...10th MarCh- FridayHad test the whole dae todae..thank god..chem n est paper was OKAY~ hahaha...was feelin good after that but rather burnt out la..after one whole week of crammin 3 paper aday liddat..finali can let go~...Went over to cs wit my frenz..had lunch togetha n catch up a lil...Then had to leave wit dexter boi coz got bm class...then headed to kerrys after that,thanks to wenz for fetchin us every week =p This time jeff ikut..Then he was like..sudenli make up his mind to join our fizik class todae..So wadeva la..he joined the class..Thanks to him todae so many ppl no place to sit~..hahaha..Physics class was very very boring todae..But,haha..met sum1 todae..he got me thinking the entire 2 hours..so at least got sumtin to distract me..if not i might juz fall asleep in class...Even von also agree that he's quite attractive k !! hahaha..11th March -SaturdayLuv daddie n mummie so muchy..they kept their promise bout my shopping trip and reali brought me to cs tis morning...Bought 4 shirts and one bag !! so happiee !! =P hehe.. My parents always try to give me everytin i want as long as its within their means..So im telling myself now..I also want to give my very very best this year for my spm and do daddie n mummie proud !! =P its the onli ting within my means now that i can give them..apart from being a good gurl wic i ledi am lar..=p haha..After that they even suggested to go to kerrys for another round of shopping trip arr...So went over to kerrys..but decided not to buy anitin coz bought enuf for the day ledi..muz got limit sikit..Then bout 1.45pm went n wait for dexter boi dwnstairs..then we went over for addmath class..blah blah blah..class was as usual..the noisy + hardworking us..hahaha...we juz luff n luff n luff the entire class..but of coz work is done LAr !!Kaylarz..wanna sign off now..goin over cuzzie's place for steamboat dinner =P haha..see u guyz again tonite !! tata..
Bad News : Im still stuck with my chemistry paper tmr !!Good News : Im having a 1 week break nex week !!haha..im counting down every second now..since monday actually..And finally the day is here..After tomorrow..i'll be Freeeee !! haha..wadeva..but still have to cramp all the chemitry tingys into my pea sized brain tonight..Have been sleeping very very late these few weeks or u may sae...for a few weeks now ? And waking up early in the morning to continue studying again. Shit la,feels as tho im turnin into a nerD~..(who can actually define the word 'nerd' ?) So have been really damn exhausted especially tis few dayz coz having test...School is crazy,cramming 3 papers aday and the worst day of all was Tuesday lar..Really felt damn lousy on Tues. Had modmaths(Form3-Form5) , physics and history test..all on the same dae..felt like dying ledi.. Lemme see, so i gez im gona flop my bio paper, physics paper, addmathz paper...wad am i left to pass ? oh..english..my ONLY hope~ hahaha...Wadeva..after school tomorrow..me and mi friends gona go n paint the town red red RED !!!! hahaha..had plans bout wad we gona do during the 1 week break ledi.. clue :(we gona sunbien paint singapore's town red too =P ) Hmm..nex mondae..me and dexter boi gona go n listen for our Undang !!! lalalalalala...aiyaH..but still have to wait till after spm onli can drive..darn it la..but at least betta than nth ritez..Tomorrow..gonna be a great dae for me la..but duno if its gona be the same for the 1987 batch..haha..results daY !!! Eva since the newspaper confirmed that the results will be tomorrow..All the sms-es and msn conversations seems to be asking me ''HOW...HOWWWW...'' hahaha.. ''WHAT IF I DUN DO WELL?!'' , ''WHAT IF SHE SCORE BETTA THAN ME??'' , ''MY PARENTS WILL KILL ME ARR !!'' etc etc..haha..till i also run out of 'encouraging' words to sae except for..''juz pray hard~''.. =P but seriously la..will be praying hard for you people kayz..and u betta pray too laH !! wadeva it is...the paper is ledi done..the results is ledi out..so dun panic so much kay !! tink its gona be a rather emotional day in school tomorrow arr..Actuali i also feelin a lil nervous la~..for sum ppl..haha.. but im sure tomorrow my hp will be flooded with happie and all those good news msg-es la kay..coz u ppl studied so hard ledi !! =PKayla..i betta sign out now and head back to my chemistry books..my last day ledi..so im gona JIA YOU !! hahaha...tata !!
im dying here...sumbodi help~...sighz..lemme see..kayz,yesterdae was fridae..After much consideration, me n my frenz decided to go to school..haha..Then had pjay..but i reali in no mood to play.So stayed in class the entire 2 period saiko-ing myself with all the sejarah facts. One whole class onli me n yap in class studying..others down at the in the field. Yeah,datz me wen examz is commin..i totally have no life..so can u picture how stressed up im feelin now ? btu wadeva it is..of coz im not sulking the whole day laH !! juz tht not in my playful mode that im usually am..After sch then me n frens headed to cs. We yearn for that time as we close frenz juz wanna get together n crap b4 starting the whole studying-like-shit nitemare again~..Had lunch..luff n luff n luff and planned our march hols..it was fun !! haha..then we headed to the bikini shop..haha..wink wink* blah blah blah..Then sadly,time for me n von to leave for tuition ledi. Reached teacher's hse..i spot an indian man outside. Dexter n wenz reaction like cool cool liddat..but i tot that indian guy muz be sum kind of crook liddat. Coz teacher's hse beside plaza dnp u see..so the crime rate there very high !! So i faster went it n walked past that guy n knock on teacher's door like mad..then teacher came out n i ceritakan lah~..so teacher also faster faster pakai kasut wan to cum out wen that indian guy came towards me n teacher..and i was like ''shit shit..teacher how ??!!'' dat time dexter n wenz was still outside teacher's hse. SUDDENLY..dat guy came n reached out his hand and salam mi teacher. I stood beside teacher..blink blink* ZADAO..he is teacher's ex-student LAH !!! boMb* hahaha..i was soo embarassed n faster went into the tuition room luffin like mad..haha..He was teacher's student 6 years ago and now he's a doc !! He actuali even came back to see teacher..but end up was mistaken for a crook by me..lalala~So after bm class..den daddie came fetch me !! Todae no fizik class coz mr.yip couldnt make it..Goodie !! =P SaturdayTodae woke up earli in the morning then coop myself in the room study study study..Really felt very fed-up ledi..but..i wun gif up !! Then dexter call n sae mummie wanna belanja me eat wantan mee !! haha..dexter's mummie belanja me lunch todae !! tis reali made my dae...i dun mean the free-food part..but its more like..smth to look forward to instead of studying onli..Then bout 1pm went over to kerrys..meet up wit manman der..Then dexter came over..and we walked over to have out nice-Y lunch !! =P haha..after lunch we went over to kerrys n met up wit hayd der..Then we walked over for addmath class..After blah blah 2 hours,then the whole group 7 of us went over to kerrys again..had our short lunch then went over to omega for chem class..Me and dexter boi went todae's class for replacement...haha...yeah..datz all. Tink i betta log off now coz im feelin damn guilty why am i blogging instead of studying. So see ya ppl !! Before that..juz wanna tell all the ex-form 5s' GOODLUCK tis thurs kay !! pray hard before u go n collect yr results...all the best !!
What am i doin here laaaahhh...haha !! one ting to warn u guyz out there..im kindda going crazy !! haha..Spent the entire dae yesterdae studying..except for the time wen i came online n blog yesterdae's post la..Then went bac to my books till 2+am tis morning...Finally gave in then went to sleep..but what the shit la..I can't even sleep in peace..at 5+am liddat quickly woke up and its like..''faster study faster study'..i duno..But frankly..the second time im feelin like tis..Last time for Pmr time..whoa~..dat one reali siao wan..i tink bac also freak myself out aR..Then studied since tis morning till now..its..12.30pm !! Oh ya,of coz i skipped sch la..since geetha and mazi wun be around..no important lesson todae also..wadeva..juz takin a break..Commin online main motive : take a break...But seems like uncle tsing u is testing my bio now !! sighz...kaylar..studie hard ya people..especially u all form5 punya human..daddie and mumsie cummin bac from airport soon ledi..tata !!
Heyz people...can't believe im actuali here blogging wen my test is like..4 days away ??! wadeva la..im juz kindda feelin so stressed up right now..not that i usually feel like this..But it juz seems like tis year..life have really been very hectic for me. And im kindda very very tiredz and burnt out now. Im seriously juz tiredz enough handling my studies cum sch activities togetha plus the stress that im carrying inside me..not forgettin to mention the probz the ppl around me created..Im juz in no mood to bother much bout anitin tis year. I dun even feel like doing anitin except caring for my studies tis year. Not that im so supa dupa kiasu coz of my SPM or wadeva..juz that i've learnt an important lesson this year. And after much 'depression' at the beginin of the year,im kindda tanking God now for actuali givin me tis wake up call. I kindda let loose of myself too much last year during form4..and not forgetting my commitment in choir last year..yeah,im truly happie that we did so well for the nationals and so on..but at the end of the day..u understand la~...So tis year i dun dare to take tings easy ledi..Was sitting in the canteen one day..looking around me..lookin at how much the canteen have changed and suddenli realised ''eh..im in form5 ledi ?'' Is tis reali gona be my laz year in sch ? My last year in convent after 11 years ? Its as tho my first dae in standard1 was juz yesterday. I juz seriously love convent alot alot..The place i started my schooling life,the place i met my friends,the place i grew up,my second home,its juz the place that completely saw me grow up !! The place wer i've met great people..teachers who have moved,friends who have moved,friends who have left sch,friends who have left tis world,friendship that has been strained,frienships that juz grew stronger each day,seeing how people have change since Form1 compared to now Form5 all turnin into a 'lady'..haha..Really proud to call myself a convent gurl !! =PJust that since we started form5..seems like our conversations are mostly about 'Days After Form 5'. haha..so different from the crap we used to tok bout..Now we're more serious..givin each other advice and support in wadeva we wan to pursue in future..exchanging info bout all the colleges..promising to keep in contact..and also being mentally prepared that 'people do change'..I seriously still duno wer im heading to after form5..So mebbe by tis date, 2 March 2006..if u cum bac and read my blog...do u tink the tings that im gona tok will be different ? im not sure wad will it be..Am i still gona blog bout tis old buddies of mine ? Will i still be talking bout the same ting..Will i stil be complainin bout the hot weather in M'sia ? Bout how boring i am in jaybee ? No,will i still be tis Su-Lyn that i am now ? haha..no one can answer tis question of mine..Mebbe by end of tis year u can cum bac and read the climax of my blog..Mebbe i kena NS ??! den u have sumtin to luff bout me..Mebbe i've decided to stop studying after form5 ??! (whuaaaa....) Mebbe i've decided to becum a lawyer in future ??! (which i noe its quite impossible..for NOW) nono..hahaha..MAYBE i'll be blogging all bout my boyfriend !! (if got people wan la..)..how adorable and great he issss...how sweeeettt...hahaha !!! who noes eh..Here comes the best part...Mebbe on 2 March 2006 wen u cum n read my blog...i'll be posting sumtin bout ''WEDDING INVITATION TO ALL !!'' hahahahahaha !!! gosh..im really crappin here..but nvmzla..juz a form of me distressing myself..so juz bear wit it will ya..eh but...wad if i go to college and saw a very irresistable gurl and fall in luv wit her ?! den i'll be blogging bout how 'lesbien-ly' i've becum !! haha..Or mebbe i kena NS den fall in luv wit one of the officer der ?? Wow..i really crap alot alot alot tis time..haha !! but wadeva it is..dun take me seriously kay.. juz need sumtin n sumwer to de-stress myself..coz i kan be turnin to my mum crappin bout all tis rite..she may juz sent me off to a psychologist de nex minute..Kayz,im feelin so much betta now..In a rather right frame of mind to touch touch my books again..haha !! dun wanna flunk my selaras satu !! Den i'll start blogging bout how 'DARK' my future is ledi..haha..Take carez ppl !!
emmm..todae was da-da-dee-da-doo !!Woke up tis morning..had my bath and got ready etc etc...Stood in front of the cupboard n suddenli juz duno wad to wear...it was 6.30am n i juz reached for the handphone n dialed dexter boi's number !! haha..i muz be mad..duno why..brain juz aint functionin..Then dexter boi kept quiet wen i ask 'wad to wear arr...' den after sum time finali answered 'wear qm wan..' den im like..''ohh..okkkiee'' den dexter went quiet again n burst out luffin..very weird way to start my mornin ritez..wadeva~Went to sch n saw may n tiuby at the bus-stop..stood der still feelin as tho im stil in a sleepin mode..Then finali feelin more n more 'alive' abit..haha...Newayz,gotta be in foonyew todae coz of the netball competition..So bout 7am++ sat Mazi's car to foonyew..still luffin bout the fact that azmi drove at 60km/h..damn slow n steady arr~..hahaha !! Reached der den got ready for the competition to start..then jilly brought me all around her 'fav' sch..showing me the toiletssss...hahaha..nice sch la kay jilly..Then after awhile the gurls frm ssi started callin and sae dun have tis dun have tht..after awhile decided to go bach to sch n take the tings..So waited for azmi to get ready and he fetched us bac to sch.The worst part was..von n jilly have to carry two tongs of water..haha..conclusion : both of dem got very very wet..best part : i sat in frnt..so im totali clean n dry ! pitiful part : azmi's car got wet la..hahaha !! So he stopped at ssi first then delivered sum of de tingys der den we went bac to fy..After awhile den me,von n jilly felt hungry...so i kept insisting tht we muz try fy's canteen food !! since sooo many ppl always make the statement that chinese sch's food always taste betta..The three of us settled for the laksa..Ehem..not badz laH !! haha..the happiest tingy der..the drinks..it was..eurm..nice n cheap !! =P hahaha...After not long it was 12pm+ ledi..tinkin how to go bac la..So end up decided to leave with man. Im like in fy and she's in ssi..so i had to walk over to ssi to meet up wit her. The best part was jilly walk me der la..haha..Reached der den we terus headed for the bus stop ledi. From 12.45pm we waited till 1.30pm no bus at all !!!!! and i was der whispering to man how uncomfortable i feel standing der swarmed by ssi and sab's humanz...n my cuzzie have to walk by and i duno wad crap he was tokin..FINALLY...the bus came..phew~So headed for kerrys..Then waited for mumsie to cum n get me..it was 2pm+ ledi by then..Went up the car and i sudenli feel so good~..hahaha...Came hme..din feel like eatin lunch at all..took my nicey bath and started wit my books ledi.Since i skipped class the whole dae..felt bad if i dun study a lil..So blah blah blah till 3.40pm liddat i fell asleep..Set my hp alarm to wake up at 4pm actuali..it supposed to be a NAP !! ONLI A NAP !! but..hehe..the alarm rang n i juz shut it..but it wasnt so bad la..coz woke up at 4.30pm..den touch my books abit..den blah blah blah n here i am !! =P miraclely mi nto feelin hungry at all..hmmm...kaylar..wanna go n touch touch my books again..see ya !!
