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  • Wednesday, May 31, 2006 - 6:18 PM

    howlie !!
    hmm, my dad used to say this whenever he came online. Not that i know what it means, but..yeah,just howlie! i assumed it myself, that it means something like ''hello,how are you!'' haha =p

    Days in jaybee been perfectly,normal ? haha..guess that life in kl been rather hectic for me. Alrght..i meant very hectic. That i dread a little going out now that im back in jb. All i wanna do is just sit at home and relax, in a more crude manner you may say ''just sit at home and rot''. Yeah, i enjoy rotting now. It seems like years since i last took a 6 hours sleep. Seriously. If i were given 8 hours of course i'd be a much happier girl. If 10 hours then...nevermind, i shall stop here.

    Been to kerrys and cs since i came back. Theres this massive difference between the shopping complex-es in kl and jb, most definitely. The crowd. This i gotta say, i walked into kerrys the other day and asked yvonne ''why so empty?''. And i start to wonder, whats all the teenagers in jb doing and where are they. To think that back then during my younger days (last year..), kerrys was my second home! Im there before tuitions almost everyday after school, im there on saturdays before tuition, and im there on sundays after tuition!! To my surprise, not a single school uniformed-soul i saw there. Alright, so the schools are having their holidays now. So? Dont you guys go out with your friends!! Hey, to think back then i was also in kerrys even during the holidays, just for lunch, for my impromptu dates, or even just for fun! Okay okay, so how many of you been up to the rooftop before? *silence* shame on you! If you're thinking of doing all these only during your college and uni days, dream on.

    The best part about still wearing that ugly and sick looking blue apron which is known as a uniform over that weird and uncomfy white collar-ed shirt is that, every mistake you do is forgivable. ''C'mon, they're just kids.'' awww...

    And so i went to cs. Alright, things were a little better. Could see tiny looking little boys and girls with their baby faces holding hands walking from the 1st floor to the 4th floor and doing the same thing over and over again. At least i saw some young souls around. Still the same place, nothing changed. But of course, shopping in jb is way much easier and em...relaxing ? being compared to kl...

    Kl is just crowded. You go during weekdays, during weekends, during normal days, during holidays, in the moring, in the night, it all makes no difference. Its still crowded. Shopping in kl is stressful. You saw something you like, u grab it. Try telling the sales person ''Oh,i'll think about it and come back later.'' The next thing you know, its gone. -exaggerating-

    As i was having a conversation going on with xiang yesterday, he asked me ''So what are your plans after this year?''. Without even thinking, i answered '' Im gonna take up psychology.'' And he finds it weird, but ''Why?''. Good question. As i started to think, why did i choose psychology?

    Its weird as people of my age are still unsure of what they really wanna do in future but i was sure of mine when i was in standard one. No joke. And of course based on my character, when i want something, means i want it. When i was in standard one, i wanted to be a teacher. Serious case, i dunno why on earth did i consider the job knowing that u have to deal with little monsters everyday and its such a low pay job that it cant even buy me a Burberry handbag if i want to change mine every month. It all comes down to interest. Then why psychology now ? Alright, partly you can blame it on a disgusting teacher i got when i was in form two that totally disgust me so much that i decided to change my profession! She is just...nevermind. As i start to open up my eyes and look around, i realised that teachers are so enthusiatic in their job only during their first few years and a few years after that, they start walking into classes emotion-less. I dont want that to happen to me!!

    When i initially decided on psychology, my parents didnt really encourage me. Just hoping that im only considering and soon i'll change my mind. But nope, i didnt. Till form 5, my parents werent really supporting the idea of taking up psychology, but i took the initiative myself to check out all the colleges and find a path myself. Came back home, explained and shared my idea with my parents. Finally, they supported my idea and found even better path for me. I know, i may spend years studying like shit just to get my dumb degree out of psychology and may end up doing some social work after that which the pay, is low. But i guess, this is what i really wanna do. How do you keep the people around you happy, when you arent happy of what you're doing yourself? Not forgetting, i'll be doing this for life. But but but of course, as we always say, there are many paths in life. You decide on something and from there somehow it will branch out to greater things in life and this goes on.

    By the way, im only sweet seventeen. *grins* I still have a long way more to go ahead of me, this means, i still have time to make mistakes and try out new things. Yeah, so lets go slow.. Who knows, i may end up as a lawyer one day !!

    Till then, im still stuck with my bio research project, darn.


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    Sunday, May 28, 2006 - 10:17 PM

    tra-la-la-boom-de-ay !! *grins grins grins*

    *sniff sniff*
    the air back in jaybee seems much fresh-er to me... =)

    Finally, im back home in jaybee! woohoo..been waiting for this moment for a very long long time..

    Well, exams over. Been a crazy week during the exam period. Waking up at 8am daily and sleeping at 5+am everyday. Coffee, been my saviour for the past week. And not fogetting sandish who has been stayin up togetha with me everynite too..sheez, seriously squeezed dry all of my brain's juice.

    Exams over ! Sis brought me to have pizza for dinner that nite =p

    Parents came over during the weekends. Hmm, basically went for the car show over at pwtc, then to 1utama, Ikea and Ikano ! busy busy weekend going everywhere looking at everything..

    Saturday night went to 1u. Had dinner and walk walk around. He treated me to Italiannies..it was yummy !! very filling tho.. he said it was supposed to be a dinner treat meant for celebrating after my exams..was happie =p

    Sunday - time to go back jb. hmm..early morning, delivered mr.bear and blue downstairs to be taken good care of while im not around. Just hope that the both of them dont get abused..I miss mr.bear, that dumb dumb bear who keeps rubbing his tummy... Reached jb, sent ching and leong back then came home. Instantly fell asleep altho i've slept the whole journey all the way back to jb =p Went out for dinner..

    Feeling tired again. Cant help it, have to make it up for my lost sleep for the past few weeks. Exhausted. Pics are available, but not gonna upload it up here so soon. -yawns-


    - i miss your smelly pyjamas -


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    Monday, May 22, 2006 - 12:16 PM

    e x a m m o d e

    im stuck in the middle of my exam week now. Alright, its only the first day today...

    I salute myself yesterday. Woke up at freaking 8.30am on a Sunday morning, and i went back to the college. Headed to the library, found a comfortable spot and settled my butt there for 6 solid hours. Mad. I drove myself crazy, doing maths there. Blasted my mp3, me being in my own world and i just started doing all the maths till about 4pm when my butts began to feel numb as i got restless. I've done too much maths till the extend that im starting to confuse myself with all the figures and my brain stopped working. I finally gave up and decided to go home...

    Went out to have dinner, decided to just follow him out before i start driving myself crazy again. I got my Jamoca Almond Fudge ice-cream again!! yummyyyy =D the almond nuts just tastes..mmm..happily being fed with lots and lots of almond nuts, im lucky. =)

    After dinner, came back about 9pm and he walked me back to the college again. Went to the foyer to meet my friends as we started on revising maths AGAIN, till 12am when the guards decided to off the foyer's lights. Walked back to the condo and rested for about 40mins in the room. Soon about 1am, went downstairs to the study room where sandish, ching and leong are and started doing my maths again. Till about 3am when my mind started to get blocked and i couldnt contain anymore figures into my tiny weeny sized brain. Just right he came down so we all took a break and for some night walk + cold cold air! We went back to the study room for some maths again and finally at 4am, decided to call it a day.

    Woke up at 7am this morning and quickly got ready. Went to the cafeteria where the guys was and we did some last revision, before making our way to the big hall and face our nightmare, Math's test. I mean, its supposed to be my nightmare.
    To get a high D for it is a little impossible..but im glad to say that efforts all well paid-off ! =p Finished the paper and left the hall early with sandish, feeling satisfied. It's a nice feeling. Came back and had lunch with big sis at the condo's cafe just now. Sigh, going to have eng exam later.

    Think i better end here now. It's gonna be another supa dupa long night again tonight...

    - coffee, plays no effect on me. I want to sleep. -


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    Saturday, May 20, 2006 - 3:48 PM

    l o v e l y d a y !! =)

    I sure gained alot alot from my visit to the Charis Home today...

    Boys and girls gathered at the foyer at 8.30am before dividing ourselves into 6 cars and making our way to the Charis Home. I followed yikhin's car and boy, it sure wasn't easy trying to find the home. We spent 1 and a half hours going round and round Puchong! madness...

    Both of us were the last to reach as the other 20 of them was already there waiting. Was given a very short briefing before we decided to seperate ourselves into two groups. One to the boys home and another to the girls, situated opposite each other. As i set my foot into the boys home, i quickly changed my mind and decided to go to the girls home instead. I was thinking, maybe there will be little small girls with long silky black hair wanting someone to comb or tie their hair for them while they're playing with their dolls and doing their drawing. Sweet. But how wrong i was.

    As i made my way into the girls home with natasha, we were both greeted with smiles as the little girls there addresed us. To my horror, all of them were in the living room doing their homework on a saturday morning. Back then, Saturday morning to me is equivalent to watching cartoons time!! Gosh. Soon, the girls took out their homeworks and we were supposed to give them tuition for the subjects that they needed. Each of us then took charge of a kid, and started to tutor them. The first time as i sat beside a girl, she started asking me some upsr questions, but, all in chinese. I shot the 'helpless' look and quickly exchanged kiddo with chunchun instead, explaining to the little girl that my chinese sucks big time. I then, taught another little girl english! =p Making simple sentences. Sometimes as things gets too complicated in life, we kind of forget how to start doing easy things instead. Had a hard time trying to construct simple sentences for her, in english.

    After finishing an assesment paper with the little girl, i excused myself and made my way to the boys home instead. Inside, the scene was totally different. The boys was busy running around, fighting, climbing all over the place, asking questions about dinosours, and they're just so easily distracted. Boys~ However, one of the boy with stanley attracted my attention. Unlike others, there he was sitting quietly at a corner with his bible in his hands, asking stanley to explain things to him.

    I then made my way to the old folk's home to take a look. Over there, the helpers sure shared alot of stories with me. Sad stories. I liked the scene when i saw an old lady sitting comfortably at the sofa blasting westlife's cd tho! =p haha..Soon, i followed gajen back to the boys home as it was time for him to perform some magic for the kids!

    As all the boys were gathered around upstairs to watch the magic show, i was sitting downstairs feeling tired already. To my surprise, one boy was least interested. He was the boy whom i was talking about, the one who is reading his bible.

    His name is John, and he's fourteen years old. John initiated a conversation with me, which i guess, really left an impact on me. I think that it is because of John, that i felt that this whole visit to the Charis Home is all worth it. And im sure glad to have met him. John isn't exactly a down syndrome kid, but lets just say that he's a little slower being compared to the rest. As John was talking to me, telling me some stories, one little boy ran towards me and asked me not to talk to John as he's retarded. I was shocked, and honestly, i didn't know what was the best reaction to give at that moment. Instead, John looked at me and said ''Nevermind. I will pray for him.'' I stared at John, as I felt really really touched that moment. And John said, ''Who disturb me, I will pray for them.'' How i really felt like hugging John that moment.

    As we both were enganged into some deep conversation, two little boys ran over again and started teasing John. Being a normal person, who is supposed to be able to control her own emotions, i almost failed to do so and i asked the two small kids to stop saying what they're saying. But John, he remained composed as he stared straight and said ''I will pray for them.'' Honestly, i am very taken aback by John. As he was telling me about temptations and he will not give in to that. I asked for an example. He said, ''If someone tease or hit me, i wont hit back.'' I became teary eyed.
    As the ''warden'' of the home came in and checked on the kids, she scolded John for reading the bible instead of his books. And soon, John kept his bible and took out some notes just to stare at it. Stanley tried explaining to the lady, that all John wanted to do is good, but he keeps getting discouraged. Sadly, the lady doesnt understand and insisted that she's right. To my horror, she even starts teasing and telling stanley how low John's IQ is, all right in front of John. I was terribly upset about everything, but there's nothing that i can do.

    As John was telling me all about how much he wanted to attend a church's bible camp, the lady suddenly appeared and shouted at John to keep all the tables. As John quietly stared at her, she raised her voice and said '' I asked you to do it, so do it !'' All these happened right in front of me and the feeling within is just horrible as i watch John quietly standing up and keeping all the tables alone. Did i mention, John is the only down syndrome kid going to a special school in the home. I couldnt contain any of these anymore, as i was telling tasha how much i have the urge to just bring John out of that place.

    Being in John's position, i can't imagine how terrible that feeling is. And to me, what is so wrong about this boy wanting his religion ?! You saying a down syndrome kid cant have any religion ?!! Instead of blaming the world or even God, for giving him a mother who doesn't want to take responsibility of him, John chose to love God even more and accepted Him into his everyday life. I believe, it's all because of his strong faith and believe in God, that John managed to pull through till this day today. We all know, being a down syndrome kid aint easy, the things that they go through makes them feel even smaller and losing their own self confidence as they turn more sensitive towards the people around them. But for John, he stayed strong and the fact that he's willing to open up his heart and let me into it, tells me that he isn't just anyone. I don't know why, but i feel alot for John, i really did. That it almost turned into anger in me, as i didn't felt like entertaining any others kids but only focused on John.

    From him, i felt that i've learn so much. His love for God, despite the things going on around him amazes me alot. The way he managed his anger is something that i have yet to learn. As time is running out, the more i didn't feel like leaving John's side to be all alone there again. How i wish, i could make a difference for him. As we asked the kids what they needed, all sorts of request came up. But John, he asked for a cross. Yes, a cross.

    It was time to leave, as i was sittin beside yikhin in the car waitin to make a move together with the rest, i looked into the home as i saw John standing outside at the gate there staring at me. Gave him a big big wave as he started to chuckle and waved back. I felt warmth. Nothing more sincere than this. He really made my trip worthwhile.

    Well, im waitin to see little John again, with his gift. =)

    Apart from all these, i definitely had alot of fun doing this project with the other guys too. Many pics were taken, but all of it in aaron's camera. So, guess i'll get the pics and post it up here soon ? Till then, take care !!!



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    Tuesday, May 16, 2006 - 11:24 PM

    happie day !! *grins*

    Just love my day today. =)

    Had major problem trying to get out of bed this morning, but had to anyway. Having chemistry test the first thing in the morning. Surprisingly, it was pouring so heavily this morning!! I just love it when it rains. Especially when its raining early in the morning? thats real rare. Altho i prefer if it rains in the evening instead, the best-est atmosphere for a nap. Oh well, i stole big sis's pink umbrella again. =p

    Chemistry test went pretty alright. Altho i don't think i'll do very well for it, oh well~

    Got back math's test paper today. Was seated between the two smart-asses, clive and claire. Felt the stress. Started to imagine how pathethic my marks would look being compared to both of theirs. When the lecturer gave me back my paper, sheez..i was jumping up and down my seat. Was grinning from ear to ear..it made my day! My reaction's kind of understand-able as maths, is none other than my ever weakest subject.

    Went to pyramid with sam, ranginie and puiyee this afternoon during the lunch break. To get some sweets and presents. We're visiting the children's home this saturday ! Part of our project for our moral studies actually. Hopefully will take lotsa pics and post it up here by then?

    I was actually insisting on visiting an old folk's home. No idea, i feel alot for old people? haha..nonsence. Visiting the old folk's home used to be a routine for me, during my younger days. All thanks to my eldest uncle, who sayangs me alot! till this day today, he still calls me ''small girl!!'' hehe.. He'll come over to my place during the weekends and bring me all around all the old folk's home to pay a visit. There, he teaches me how to create a conversation with them and basically, learn to love them. And i do love such visits! The bomb gotta be during the chinese new year festive every year. He'll bring me to a few old folk's home to give out red packets to them! Wish you guys were there to watch how happily those old folks looked when they receive it. It isn't the amount of money inside the red packet tht matters actually, but its the thought that at least someone still cares for them.

    I distinctively remembered an old lady. She just refused to mix around and just sits by the side of her bed knitting. Classic eh. My uncle asked me to approach her, and it took me great courage being a young kid to start a conversation. I remembered her being rather cold to me at first. As i got all day to 'bond' with her, i sat there and watched her knit, hoping that she didnt find me annoying. But, she initiated a conversation with me, asking my age. I couldn't remember how old was i back then, as it had been quite a few years now. But soon i was asking more about her. Only to know that she has three sons. Three sons who didn't want her anymore. And man, she's really a classic old lady who speaks pretty good english. I love her !! My uncle brought me back to visit her for a few more times after that and we eventually, became pretty good friends? =p

    I am definitely ashame to say this, but after feeling so much for them..it reached a day when my great-grandma was sent to an old folks home herself. Don't wish to elaborate much about this, i was too young to have any say back then. Came a day when great-grandma left this world, and i stopped going to the old folks homes after that. All they ever wanted is just for some company actually, that simple.

    But now that i still have my lovable grandma with me, im gonna treasure her and love her with all my heart. Oh ya, and to daddy and mummy, don't worry cause me and sis gonna take care of the both of you next time too, will all our hearts, just the way how the both of you loved us with all your hearts.

    God, back to as what i was saying...Since majority of them wants to go to the children's home, then the children's home is where we'll go! Hopefully no notty kids around this sat ?haha.. *keeping fingers crossed*

    Hmm..im sleepy now..*immediately slumps onto the bed*

    - I miss you. Study hard boy. =) -


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    Monday, May 15, 2006 - 11:25 PM

    aaaaHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!

    just destress-ing, don't mind me. =)

    taking some time off chemistry, feeling too suffocated with all the moles, ions, atoms etc etc. Not surprised if i'll even dream chemistry tonight. Having chemistry test the first thing in the morning tomorrow, and the worst part, the whole test is all about calculations. *digs a hole big enough for my coffin*

    Mid course exam in just 5days now. I am counting down to it, but im dreading it as it gets nearer too. How, so complicating. I am actually counting down to the mid sem break happening right after the exams actually. =) Dad and mum pretty excited about it too, since they've been asking me about it almost every single day! haha..

    Im suddenly craving for...

    mcdonalds. again.


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    Friday, May 12, 2006 - 11:44 PM

    fli fla flu bloo !! (no one understands what these means anyway =p )

    Days been fun!
    Boys and girls were playing with the cake's cream at the cafeteria just the other day. Its from vivian's birthday cake by the way..Dont know how it all got started. Came down to the cafeteria from the library and Sam was already giving me the cheeky look from far, could have sensed that something is wrong. haha..victim of the day got to be Clive. His shirt and pants, gone case. And Puiyee too, she smells all chocolate-y! haha..noisy bunch of us there..

    Had my maths test on friday. Hope that i didnt screw that paper up. Could have felt the pressure comming from Eggy who was seated in front of me in the exam hall. Panicked right before the test, luckily jerry was patient enough to refresh my memory and calm me a little. Guess i made him and aaron confused a little right before entering the hall tho. haha...
    Oh yeah, had some fun before test. Was back at the condo and its almost time to go back to the uni when suddenly there's a heavy downpour + very strong wind. No choice, still got to walk all the way back to the uni with alan and jerry. Was totally drenched, but it was fun. And a good time to play with sis's pink umbrella...haha..

    After test, was feeling great. For no reason, just felt so relieve. Watched him playing his foosball a little before going back home. Just like a small kid happily playing there. Was supposed to go to pyramid and meet up with the crazy mufy-rians there later on, but...nevermind. Sorry guys!!

    Really glad that its a holiday today. A day for me to totally slacked!! Woke up late, watch tv, sleep again, watch ice age2, sleep again..till finally its about 5pm. Played rollercoater tycoon, university tycoon and finally settled for the sims. Been a long time since i last played computer games. After that went pyramid for dinner and blah blah blah...finally came back home bout 11pm.

    = wanlin = hey gurl, thanks alot for that message which came just right before my test. Its really sweet and means alot to me. Thanks !! =)

    = yvonne = didi ar, xiexie for entertaining me with all your jokes ar..haha..still as ''dirttie'' as ever ar you..missing your laughters

    Alrite, think i'll just end things here for today. Gotta go watch the file that jilly sent now.



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    Thursday, May 11, 2006 - 10:13 AM

    Was having some mixed emotions last night. Just felt so much burden on my shoulders that i sat back and didn't know what to do anymore. Had test consequently day after day, assignments pilling up, research project going on, mid course exams happening in about 10days now. Felt frustrated, angry, weary, confused, stressed up, you name it i felt it. My mind was totally blocked last night, that i just couldnt think anymore. Wasnt in the right frame of mind to even think rationally that committing suicide is not a good way out for myself. Committing suicide ? Alright, kidding about that. But i guess this showed you how ''desperate'' i was feeling last night.

    I was like a fish. A fish swimming in the sea. Lets say, Port Dickson. hmm, i wanna be a clown fish! Alright, so i was like a clown fish swimming in the sea at Port Dickson. The sea water is obviously contaminated and facing major problem of water pollution. Thick layer of oil covered the water's surface. And i, am no other than that tupid little clown fish swimming in the water under that thick layer of oil, trying my best gasping for some air. And i nearly failed but...

    What if someone just appear at your doorstep, and offered to clear that think layer of oil above you? At the time when i was sitting back asking God why am i feeling all these and prayed for just any little strength to be given to me, so that i can at least survive my night, i guess that God really answered my prayer.

    For some reason, God assigned him to be my angel for the night. Or maybe actually he has been my guardian angel all along. He helped to clear up my thoughts, answering all the questions that i am feeling within me, sorting out my life, and somehow...little by little taking away the burden off my shoulders. Finally beside him, is where i felt lighter again and my direction that i was initially heading towards. What he said is partially true. What im feeling now is only so so minor, being compared to the things that others have to go through in the world. The closest example, daddie and mummie.

    While i am in kl, i am indulging myself into self-pity at the expense of my parents.

    While my dad also wakes up early in the morning and has to go to work despite liking or disliking it, and he has been doing that since the day i was borned. Honestly, daddie has never, NEVER complain of any hardwork to the family before. I guess that's because he feels that it is his responsibility as a father.
    Mummy wakes up even earlier every morning. Being a housewife is an easy job? I beg to differ. I find being a housewife is the toughest job ever. Thats because being a housewife, there's no such thing as taking a break or holiday. And being a housewife, there's no such thing as ''resignation''. And mum is obviously a very special housewife. Despite daddie having a maid around to help her, she prefers to do things herself when it concerns the family. All the maid has to do is just to clean up, that simple. Mummy never complains too, as she does things because she wants the best for us. I guess that's because she feels that it is her duty as a mother.

    While i am the one benefitting from all their hardwork, i am still here complaining my butts out. What is my problem ? I am already given the best that i can have here, learn to appreciate. As a daughter, i have a responsibility towards them too. Thats to make all their efforts go worthwhile. And i will do it.

    Now i am motivated.

    And its all thanks to him too. The one who has been around by my side making all things alright for me. =)

    I want back the old me. The girl, who for some reason, always feel that life is perfect. And life have been perfect for her all along actually, thats because of the way she handles her life and mindset. Actually, her no-such-thing-as-problem life have been the same all these while, till this day today. In addition, it is even better now. She just didn't realise it as her surrounding changed 180 degrees. But now she does.

    What do i have to be worried about ? Studies. Just study hard then! Not enough ? Study harder !

    Life is indeed, perfect !! =p

    -the end-


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    Wednesday, May 10, 2006 - 12:56 PM

    Totally blanked out during my bio test just now.

    I screw it up. No one else to blame, but only me.

    Dissapointed. =(


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    Thursday, May 04, 2006 - 12:46 PM

    break time!

    Quickly came back right after bio class. Had major problem trying to open my eyes to make it for chem class this morning. I can feel my lazy-ness all comming back to me. Seriously dragged myself all the way to the bathroom. Suddenly thought of mummy then, the way she has been waking me up every morning for the past 11years, or sometimes daddy takes over the job.

    I asked sis the other day. ''Actually, whats wrong with being pampered?''. I have been pondering, now that i've left my cossy and protected nest for 11years. It all started from being in national service. No doubt that the three months in there had been hell for me, harsh way of living. And now that im up here in kl a week after national service is over, what is it all about being independant ? To me, being independant is more about knowing to handle yourself, self-dicipline is more of what we're talking about. Giving up the luxury of life doesn't mean anything. There is of course, a limit for everything. The bottomline, i want to be home. =)

    Days to mid course examination are countable now. A little burnt out from all the tests and load of work to be done. Lecturers are going like bullet-train now, keeping their finger crossed that they are able to finish the syllabus with us so that we're able to sit for the exam with the january intake peeps. My brain's working too fast now, churning everything that i've learnt in a day, and by night time..it seems as tho it's gonna burst anytime. Glad that i've handed up both my chem assignments due today and im over with my test this morning. Now i have to focus on my bio and maths test going on next week.

    But of course, the bad comes before the good. Having two weeks break right after my exams is something to be celebrated. Wish i could have the best of both worlds, going home to my parents and him being back. Too bad that finals had to be on during that period.Smiles and sighs.

    To diana, no i've not forgotten about you girl. Of course not. Just that life's been really hectic here that I find not time to sit down and talk to you. This weekend alright ? Till then, be patient. =p

    To yvonne, me doing fine here! I miss you alot alot alot too. Wait for me during my break time kay ? We'll meet up and talk, have loads of things to share with you. Keeping too much things within me. And i know, you do too. =)

    I am in desperate need for a nap now.


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    Tuesday, May 02, 2006 - 12:39 PM


    balloons balloons in the air.... =)
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    - 11:54 AM

    I had a good day...then a bad day came along...

    Yesterday...

    Sent parents off in the early afternoon. Was controlling myself, could have just hopped on the car any minute and refuse to get down. I miss home. I wanna go home. I want to be back in jb!! Was just telling my parents, that the first thing i'd do when i reach home for my sem break, is to go to the pelangi hawker and have my long lost char kuey teow...yummm...

    After not long, went over to asia to meet up with my friends. Tiuby and jiali came up to kl from jb this afternoon !! niceness... Me and tiuby had three rounds of pool and i had another round with jiali after that. By the time we're done with our pool, decided to go to pyramid cause dear tiuby was craving for some standard ice-cream. Mcd's ice-cream just don't please her. So we went to have our baskin robins!! She was happily having her waffle there while i was having my double cone, it was supa dupa yummy-licious !! Do you know that eating ice-cream when it's raining is the best feeling ever ? Oohh, if you can have it during winter time will be even better! Reminds me of the time i was licking my ice-cream altho i was wrapped with layers and layers of winter jacket as it was snowing outside. That feeling is, just heavenly.

    As usual, when all of us come toegther..great minds starts to work together and we'll be up to great things. Spotted some kids walking out of the kiddos shop with blue blue balloons in their hands. And so, the gigantic us wants it too! Got the as expected, jillian, to go get it for us and she really did! Came back to us with a bunch of balloons, each of us had one. Imagine the sight of six giants holding a small blue balloon each in our hands sitting in baskin robins eating our ice-cream. Then, no idea who started it but we started tying things to our balloons and let it loose into the air. One by one, each floated up to the ceiling. It was nice =p

    After baskin robins, we went to coffee bean to sit awhile, then to uncle lim's, then finally to kim gary. haha..I miss the crazy times that i have with the girls. The time when the friendship is just pure and simple without any political stuffs, when going crazy is what we do best. Don't ask me why, we just started singing and dancing outside esprit. haha..you know, when you do things in a group, you just couldn't care less about what other people may think. All these are the things that i can't do together with my mufy girlfriends, somehow, they're more...straight? I don't know whats the suitable word to be used..you people should understand what im trying to mean eh~


    Today....

    Dr. Lee cancelled this morning's chemistry class. woohoo...extra an hour to sleep =) Went for english and Mrs. Morris surprised us..with some trial test for our test this comming thursday. As usual, you set your butts on the seat and your hand starts to write non-stop till the time is up. Handed up my essay and rushed back to the condo because i realised that i forgot my lab-coat! Came home, took my lab coat and rushed back to the college only to know that, bio teacher's under mc. Bio class cancelled. Gosh. Thank god i met Jerry along the way or i'd be jumping up and down and threatening to burn down the whole lab if i have walked all the way down to the lab. So we came back to the condo and chatted online.

    He was mentioning bout some old hairstyle he used to have. With long frindge at the front and so on. As i suggested for him to keep his hair long, he argued back saying that if he keeps too long, it'll be very hot and he might suffer from dehydration. As i stared at the whole conversation, i began to take interest in the dehydration part he was mentioning. And then he said that the head will be too hot and the end result is..dehydration ? I actually believed that for a second thinking that he's the bio freak, only to come to my senses and argued that if thats the case, i might just die anytime now of dehydration too. And he replied..

    ''Girls got special cooling system. Female anatomy advantage.''

    what the ?? *speechless*

    Guess this is it for now. Got to do some stuff now. Till then, tata !!


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    Monday, May 01, 2006 - 3:12 PM


    spot mr.yab checking out his sausages if its cooked =p
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    - 3:12 PM


    birthday girl + june in kim gary
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    - 3:11 PM


    birthday girl with her cake...haha,funny pic
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    - 3:10 PM


    sis, daddie, mumsie and me !! =)
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    - 3:06 PM


    candid picture ! june and her crazy pose =P
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    - 3:05 PM


    sis (far left) and and her friends
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    - 2:20 PM

    gosh, been a supa dupa very berry extremely long time since i last blogged eh..sorry people!

    The same thing, life has been very hectic for me. And when i say very..i mean..very..

    Been late or almost late for my first class everyday for the past whole week. I have to say that i am already immune to my alarm, alright, this is bad. Had two tests on last week. Bio pretty much sucked big time, sheez..it was tough. Math went pretty alright tho, thank god. Can i draw up to a conclusion that, the more you study, the suckier the paper will turn out to be ? Its proven for my case. I took 6 days slogging my butts out for bio but only 2 days for math.

    Apart from all the tests, life has been pretty good =)

    Was my sis's 21st birthday last Thursday. Happy Birthday Grace !! =) Couldn't really do much for her because i was having a test on friday. So we had a mini cutting-cake session for her during the night. Got a few humans over, sang her the song, cut the cake and ate it.



    Then we had the real celebration on Saturday evening by the poolside instead. It was initially raining and we thought the barbeque party is gonna be a goner. Luckily it did not take the rain long to stop and the fire can finally be set up !!

    Dad and mum actually dropped by kl on Thurday to pass sis her birthday cake and off they go for their honeymoon. *chuckles*

    Tried getting sis the converse shoe she wanted, but all because of my lagging-ness..Went over to pyramid with mr.yab on friday night, all ready to get her the shoe but..out of s-t-o-c-k!! Was like cracking my head thinking what to get her. So we decided to get her the present only later, at least we'll get her something she really wants.

    Went over to klcc on sunday with my parents. For no reason, there's sale all over. Finally sis choosen a Guess handbag as her present *girls...* At least my mission is finally done.

    Really glad that we have this 4 days break. At least it gives me some time to actually really breathe. Was feeling so suffocated for the past weeks as things just pile up one after another. But sad to say, as classes starts again tomorrow..it's time to fight the battle again. My mid course examination is in three weeks time.

    Im offically stressed up.

    - come...lets walk like a crab !! -


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