howlie !!hmm, my dad used to say this whenever he came online. Not that i know what it means, but..yeah,just howlie! i assumed it myself, that it means something like ''hello,how are you!'' haha =pDays in jaybee been perfectly,normal ? haha..guess that life in kl been rather hectic for me. Alrght..i meant very hectic. That i dread a little going out now that im back in jb. All i wanna do is just sit at home and relax, in a more crude manner you may say ''just sit at home and rot''. Yeah, i enjoy rotting now. It seems like years since i last took a 6 hours sleep. Seriously. If i were given 8 hours of course i'd be a much happier girl. If 10 hours then...nevermind, i shall stop here.Been to kerrys and cs since i came back. Theres this massive difference between the shopping complex-es in kl and jb, most definitely. The crowd. This i gotta say, i walked into kerrys the other day and asked yvonne ''why so empty?''. And i start to wonder, whats all the teenagers in jb doing and where are they. To think that back then during my younger days (last year..), kerrys was my second home! Im there before tuitions almost everyday after school, im there on saturdays before tuition, and im there on sundays after tuition!! To my surprise, not a single school uniformed-soul i saw there. Alright, so the schools are having their holidays now. So? Dont you guys go out with your friends!! Hey, to think back then i was also in kerrys even during the holidays, just for lunch, for my impromptu dates, or even just for fun! Okay okay, so how many of you been up to the rooftop before? *silence* shame on you! If you're thinking of doing all these only during your college and uni days, dream on.The best part about still wearing that ugly and sick looking blue apron which is known as a uniform over that weird and uncomfy white collar-ed shirt is that, every mistake you do is forgivable. ''C'mon, they're just kids.'' awww...And so i went to cs. Alright, things were a little better. Could see tiny looking little boys and girls with their baby faces holding hands walking from the 1st floor to the 4th floor and doing the same thing over and over again. At least i saw some young souls around. Still the same place, nothing changed. But of course, shopping in jb is way much easier and em...relaxing ? being compared to kl...Kl is just crowded. You go during weekdays, during weekends, during normal days, during holidays, in the moring, in the night, it all makes no difference. Its still crowded. Shopping in kl is stressful. You saw something you like, u grab it. Try telling the sales person ''Oh,i'll think about it and come back later.'' The next thing you know, its gone. -exaggerating- As i was having a conversation going on with xiang yesterday, he asked me ''So what are your plans after this year?''. Without even thinking, i answered '' Im gonna take up psychology.'' And he finds it weird, but ''Why?''. Good question. As i started to think, why did i choose psychology?Its weird as people of my age are still unsure of what they really wanna do in future but i was sure of mine when i was in standard one. No joke. And of course based on my character, when i want something, means i want it. When i was in standard one, i wanted to be a teacher. Serious case, i dunno why on earth did i consider the job knowing that u have to deal with little monsters everyday and its such a low pay job that it cant even buy me a Burberry handbag if i want to change mine every month. It all comes down to interest. Then why psychology now ? Alright, partly you can blame it on a disgusting teacher i got when i was in form two that totally disgust me so much that i decided to change my profession! She is just...nevermind. As i start to open up my eyes and look around, i realised that teachers are so enthusiatic in their job only during their first few years and a few years after that, they start walking into classes emotion-less. I dont want that to happen to me!!When i initially decided on psychology, my parents didnt really encourage me. Just hoping that im only considering and soon i'll change my mind. But nope, i didnt. Till form 5, my parents werent really supporting the idea of taking up psychology, but i took the initiative myself to check out all the colleges and find a path myself. Came back home, explained and shared my idea with my parents. Finally, they supported my idea and found even better path for me. I know, i may spend years studying like shit just to get my dumb degree out of psychology and may end up doing some social work after that which the pay, is low. But i guess, this is what i really wanna do. How do you keep the people around you happy, when you arent happy of what you're doing yourself? Not forgetting, i'll be doing this for life. But but but of course, as we always say, there are many paths in life. You decide on something and from there somehow it will branch out to greater things in life and this goes on.By the way, im only sweet seventeen. *grins* I still have a long way more to go ahead of me, this means, i still have time to make mistakes and try out new things. Yeah, so lets go slow.. Who knows, i may end up as a lawyer one day !! Till then, im still stuck with my bio research project, darn.
