fighting away my laziness...been pretty lazy lately and thats a pretty bad sign !! with spm in about a month time...lacking of motivation as each days goes by,slacking even more each day... im in need for something new,something different..hmm..Well,been online quite often now lately..seems to me that every chatroom im in,we're all talking bout ''future''..studies and so on..asking around,hoping to have someone who is going to the same place you're in..well,obviously you always want at least some familiar faces around you when theres a new begining rite..school officially ends on 31oct for the form fives in school..no difference to me actually,since im onli seen in school once a week..Got rather emo in school last wednesday in school..haha,went to school for one purpose only..thats to sign my leaving school cert..oh man,as i held on to my paper..stared at my school's badge and my name..written there which year i went into convent and that my life in convent ends on the 31st oct 2005. Sighz..cant believe it..still feeling rather 'childish' in the inside but im actually out of school in 2 weeks ?!! wow..Im gonna miss the mother mary's statue.The statue that greets me everyday when i walk up the school,the statue that bids me goodbye when i leave school everyday..Just love looking at her from afar as i walk up the school everyday,how graceful She stands there..with the history behind it..shit,im really in love with convent !! guess you ppl never know how proud i am to always announce that ''my school is situated on a hill! haha..and that i climb up a hill everyday just to go to school !'' well,i'll be back =POh yea,so many is asking me bout my plans and ugh,all i just keep telling people is ''next time only tell you la''..haha..im lazy to type out la! and noting is confirmed yet..for now,what me and my parents have to put de national service tingy into consideration too.feeling ask tho its ruining my future!! haha...got my ns letter yesterdae neway,and...how stupid..Saiz baju : __________Saiz seluar : __________Saiz kasut : __________i was like wad de...HOW ON EARTH DO I KNOW HOW SMALL IS YOUR FREAKING SMALL AND HOW MEDIUM IS YOUR MONKIE MEDIUM OR HOW IDIOTICLY LARGE IS YOUR LARGE ?!! oh yea,large is out of the story..but still..im just so supa sensitive when ppl talk to me bout ns lar..its like,i'll find every single little mistake they do to pick on them !! evil me ? well,they deserve it !! and oh ya..saiz kasut..shoe size..i duno,mebbe the ppl working under the government onli wears one pathetic shoe in their entire life..how do i noe howz yr cutting like ??! stupid stupid stupid !!! Oh yea,in the letter...the first sentence goes like this...Terlebih dahulu saya bagi pihak Jabatan Latihan Khidmat Negara, Kementerian Pertahanan mengambil kesempatan ini untuk mengucapkan tahniah kepada saudara/saudari kerana berjaya dipilih untuk menyertai Program Latihan Khidmat Negara bagi Siri 3/2006.awww...heart melts..they actually congratulate me..how sweet can they be! REALLY JUST HOW SWEET CAN THEY BE...eh hello,this is like a misfortune happening to me and you congratulate me ?! maddening..how insensitive can they get..and whats with the sentence ''berjaya dipilih'' ? ohh,how can i forget..im the LUCKY ONE !! oh yeaa,i succeded !!! congratulate me ppl !!! i'll make sure i 'THANK' you ppl personally if you really congratulate me..wanna noe the following sentence...lemme see...2. Jabatan ini sentiasa berusaha untuk menambah baik perkhidmatan. Oleh itu kerjasama saudara/saudari diminta untuk mengisi Kad Akaun Penerimaan yang disertakan dan serahkan kepada JLKN dengan kadar segera supaya maklumat saudara/saudari boleh dikemaskinikan.look..they're reassuring me that they're always improving.always improving...forever improving..improve your head la !!! what can you do ?! build a 5star hotel in the jungle ? not enough..i only stay in 6 star hotel !! better make sure you have heater by the time i get in..or u're gonna be soooo dead..im feeling so 'reassured' right now,thanks..argh..im making my own life miserable by having such thinking even before going into the camp itself..i know i know..just cant help it..will get over tis soon i guess..three months..oh well,gonna spend three months spotting attractive guys available in the camp i guess...attractive hair-less guys..yea,did i ever mention to you that botak-headed-guys turns me on ? hahaha..cant wait to lay my hands on the m16,if i do get the chance of coz..so people,dont offend me now or...i swear you'll be the first on my mind when i touch those m16..honoured ? blah...overall,life been pretty much fine..noting much to grumble here ledi ...thanks peeps for lending me your 'eyes' =P feelin much betta now..haha..study hard ppl,and to those whose end year examz are all over,or wadsoeva..i don't like you !!!! haha...juz kiddin,take care..song recommended for now...Craig David- Don't Love You No More (Im Sorry)For all the years that I've known you babyI can't figure out the reason why lately you've been acting so cold(didn't you say)If there's a problem we should work it outSo why you giving me the cold shoulder nowLike you don't even wanna talk to me girl(tell me)Ok I know I was late againI made you mad and then it's throwing the panBut why are you making this drag on so long(i wanna know)I'm sick and tired of this silly games(silly games)Don't figure that I'm the only one here to blameIt's not me here who's been going round slamming doorsThat's when you turned and said to meI don't care babe who's right or wrongI just don't love you no more.[CHORUS]Rain outside my window pouring downWhat now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorryFeeling like a fool cause I let you downNow it's, too late, to turn it aroundI'm sorry for the tears I made you cryI guess this time it really is goodbyeYou made it clear when you saidI just don't love you no more[VERSE 2]I know that I made a few mistakesBut never thought that things would turn out this wayCause I'm missing something now that your gone(I see it all so clearly)Me at the door with you inner state(inner state)Giving my reasons but as you look awayI can see a tear roll down your faceThat's when you turned and said to meI don't care babe who's right or wrongI just don't love you no more.[CHORUS]Rain outside my window pouring downWhat now, your gone, my fault, I'm sorryFeeling like a fool cause I let you downNow it's, too late, to turn it aroundI'm sorry for the tears I made you cryI guess this time it really is goodbyeYou made it clear when you saidI just don't love you no more[BRIDGE]Don't say those words it's so hardThey turn my whole world upside downGirl you caught me completely off guardOn the night you said to meI just don't love you more.
