clear-headed...
yeah,im definitely more clear-headed now compared back to yesterday.Wanted to blog last night actually,but guess better not.I tense to crap a lil too much when im feelin emo.I know that.
Last day of school.
A day which for some reason-i-dont-know-why i've been counting down to since the beginning of this year.Its kind of happy yet sad at the same time,confusing but ya,its something everyone would have to go thru.Went to school this morning,kept saiko-ing myself that i-am-not-going-to-cry.Obviously,i failed that.
Reached school and as usual,went to the usual place,my friends were all there already.Thank god i made it in time for the majlis sembah salam or i'll regret it my whole life.The atmosphere is kindda unusual this morning.Usually being greeted in the morning with dexter's screaming,its different today.She's kindda quiet,very quiet.Kay,this is bad.Everyone is kindda quiet this morning.As i flashed back,i clearly remember how was it like during my first day of school in form1.I just reached school,walked up to the hall and for sure,this group of friends is already there at the back of the hall.And today,we're together again,on our last day.nice
Majlis sembah salam.The prefects started and slowly the students gotta face the teachers one by one.Tears.Many started crying,and to think that i even laughed at them at the back there.But in my heart i was feeling very heavy already.As me and my friends were standing together at the back,the worst song is played.Vitamin C's Graduation song.It didnt take me more that 2 minutes i guess,tears started trickling down.All of us started turning away from each other as we try hard to keep wiping away our tears.In the end,we gave up.I just couldnt contain the emotion anymore.Stood there trying to remain composed,but in my heart,its tearing apart.Hugs given.
I started with Mrs Gracie.Our headmistress.Its also her last day of school today,as she's retiring after this year.I dont know hows convent's fate after this year.Will the new headmistress understand the old traditional concept of convent ? Will convent be better,or worst ? I hope for the best.As i stood in front of mrs gracie,i instantly broke down again and gave her a big hug.I clearly remember,mrs gracie was my english teacher when im in form3.She's a real fussy teacher i guess.Never liked the way i wrote my ' I ' as ' l '.So one day,i was made to stand in front of the class,she passed me a marker,and i gotta write the letter ' I ' carefully on the board for god knows how many times.But its after that incident,that i got my nice little ' I ' i have today.thanks.She's also supa fussy when it comes to hair,especially fringe.Without fail,the second i spot her in school,i'll be asking around frantically for hairpins.Or she'll start her trademark-word again ''you girls look so samsam''.haha..i miss that.Oh yea,and the part she hates the way we stand up and sit down.She expects perfect silence when we pull or push our chair while standing up and sitting down,like how she describes it,we're her ''angels''.
After mrs gracie,i got hold of myself again.But as i turned to my left,darn,another teacher which i love.Gave mrs farehan a hug and sure enough both of us started shedding tears.Her first statement ''It's really nice to have a student like you'' make me cry uncontrolably as i thanked her for everything.
Teachers,after one comes another..all standing in a line.Then it came to my favourite one,mrs emelda.Yeah,if you've followed my past post closely,you will realise that i talked most about her.Its ironic,she has just taught me this year and yet,left such a deep impression in me.Her first word,''Sulyn,im very sure you will make it in life.I believe in you.'' i broke down again and gave her a big hug.I was lost for words,as i just kept crying.And there she was,giving me words of encouragement for my future.I thanked her for everything,thats the most i could say as my tears is already choking me.haha..
blah blah blah..the list goes on.Till it comes to mrs khoo.Mrs khoo have been teaching me since like what,standard two !! believe it..she came up to secondary school after that and became my form teacher.Mrs khoo,the most 'steady' teacher i have.Had lots of fun with her.Her first word was ''You better take care of your little leg!!'' haha..Mrs khoo..she actually told the netball girls bout my unfortunate-story last year and there we were,flashing back,laughing bout it.Kindda had a very bad fall during sports day last year,as many people can remember coz it happened right in the middle of the stadium,in front of the whole convent! my most memalu-fying thing in life.I still remember mrs khoo there panicking whether to call the ambulance or my parents.And yeah,the got some chi-ko-peks paramedics over.That night,she went to school to find my details and surprisingly,i received a phone call from her.And since,she calls my mum to check on me.Love her !! i will never forget her strong english accent =P
Then it came to my bio teacher.Mrs cheng.haha..i seriously cant think of any way to describe her,she's just the cutest and weirdest teacher in convent!! haha..she gave me a really hard time when i tried to get my forecast result tho.And there she was reminding me to take care of my leg too,asking me to take precautions as problems may arise when im old.haha..for now,i dont care!! Oh yea,there's my chemistry teacher too,who is my form teacher this year.Miss Mas Liana.She actually just came into convent last year.And the thing is,she never smiles.A real tough nut to crack.And she suffers from serious mood-swings.But it was only towards the end of the year,she started smilling more.A teacher who always cekik me in her class for i-dunno-what-reason,i came to love her eventually.
It came to mrs vasantha then.My used-to-be math and form teacher in form3 and my addmath teacher this year.She has been teaching my sis too! Mrs vasantha,guess she always have probz with us at the back of her class,too noisy and obviously she doesnt like it! haha..But as today's the last day,we caught mrs vasantha just staring blankly at the six of us,the 6 muskeeters in her class since form 3,and she just smilled to herself.Gave her a big hug and started sobbing of course.I still remember her smile when she announced my pmr results to me.haha..As i got my pmr slip,i was shocked and asked her,''are you sure its my name''?? and sure enough,she took back the slip,screened through it and gave me a big smile,its yours.Thanks mrs vasantha for never giving up in me,altho i sux big time when it comes to figures.Must have given you a hard time.haha..
The last teacher i went to was mrs doreen.As she stood there and stare at me,i stared blankly at her and exclaimed ''aih teacher,i cannot already'' haha..i was really tired from all the non-stop breaking down,remain compose,breaking down again.And mrs doreen,obviously,i sobz hard.My choir teacher,who has been playing the part as a very dedicated mother of the choir.Thru this two years process,of course i have my disagreement with her while doing my duty and so on,but it will all come down to me that she just wants the best.As she exclaimed ''ahh,my choir girl'' and i gave her big hug and cried.Memories of choir just flashed back that moment,and i find it real hard to let go.Thanked her and told her that choir has really taught me alot in life.
The next teacher should be mrs yeo,but i couldnt take it anymore.Im just too tired already..so i went out to get some ''fresh air'' but friends made it worst.One by one all came and yet,another hugging session.A hug that worths a thousand words.I was so lost for words.To others,i just hug and somehow,wishing them all the best in future.For others whom i know i'll be seeing them next year,i just told them to hold back the hugs,''i'll be seeing you in subang next year la!!'' haha..meanie i know. The worst gotta be lynn i guess,as she began sobbing so hard,my uniform almost soaked wet ledi la! haha..that small gurl.Known her since primary 2,and she has always been this small girl in my eye till this day today.Tried cracking some joke,ended up i found out that the first time i made her cry,was when i sae ''why u so kaypoh huh'' when im in god-noes-standard-what !! haha..sorry gurl! but yeah,the same word i've been telling you since last time,dont fall for boys so easily.haha..
After everything,the whole bio-lab and padang is just filled with girls crying.Me and my friends couldnt take it anymore,and we decided to go to the library to just hang out with each other.Ended up playing blackjack,and we bet.haha..bad girls i know..and woohoo,i won !!! altho its just a few dollars,haha..tink seekay lost the most? After that was recess,we went back to our 'old-usual' place for the last time.We've been gorging ourselves with canteen food these two days la,like our last supper liddat.haha..i didnt know canteen food tastes this good before,aiks!
After that was the taklimat for spm again.Was dead bored of it,everyone is so sleepy ledi.Must have been from all the crying in the morning.haha..I was there rushing revathi's autograph la..guilty day,i owed so many their autograph paper! i promise,after spm k..somehow,i'll deliver it to your house.I hope.
This is it,my last day in convent. As u can see,lotsa tears involved.haha..its kindda hard to let go my 'home' of 11years.I practically grew up there.But yeah,after today,no more tears. Life goes on. These memories will be part of me always,every single one of you out there which made my staying in convent a lovely one thru these years. As one door closes,another door opens. My future and yeah,im sure excited bout my whole new journey after this !! Just pray hard that it'll be a smooth sailing one.* To all of you convent gals out there,just wanna thank all of you for everything !! Sorry if thru these years,i've done anything that may hurt any of you out there.If i did, just wanna tell you that its never my intention to hurt anyone.forgive me please? i know you ppl have biggy hearts,will forgive me for sure right! And yah,as all of you may know,i have real bad memory.So,if i still owe any of you anything,please come and ask from me! dont shy shy kay..Just wanna wish all of you all the best for your future,do take care,and always believe in yourself. for sure,sulyn will miss you alot! and of coz,please make sure even after 10years down the road,you'll still remember who sulyn is alrite! nah,im sure you will..haha..alrite gurls, till i see you again..someday. * oy,study hard la...spm comming !! -Simple In Virtue.Steadfast In Duty.-
